@Linkat,
It is sinful and wrong on all levels - this is why I do not get it.
Both are married with grown up kids. No 'pointful' love is possible at the given point. Only forget, stop, find other things to do, bang your spouse...are answers to this mess.
This is why pill is needed. Daily until it is gone!!!
I am not thinking of killing myself but some days my anxieties are so intense that I am feeling that I might die just from that alone.
I am seeing actual phsychoetrist in February. I can't go on like that anymore.
But if he is suggesting those pills like Cymbalta - I am out, it gives me hallucinations.
This is why I am out here for all of those idiots who are pointlessly in love.