The Most Radical Change In My Life

Depression?

Introverts enjoy their time alone bear. Are you?

I haven't gotten much enjoyment out of life for quite some time. Fleeting moments. I would describe myself as resigned and tired rather than depressed.

I think it's quite normal what you're going through - transitioning is probably a better word for it. You had life changing events happening recently: you retired and you separated from squinney. That's enough to throw anyone out of the loop.
You are readjusting now and I think it's a good idea to reflect on these changes and cope with them. Once you're mentally and emotionally through these changes and have coped with them.....you'll be out and
about playing the first fiddle at the retirement home

Thoroughly respect Jane's response above but in my own cases have encountered several instances where feeling depends on common blood fractions, too much or not enough

Vein, I had felt that way exactly for some 15-20 years until I learned it's a side effect of my hypertension and cholesterol meds. Just recently however suddenly began feeling wonderful and full of pep all day

No apparent reason tho the sudden change coincided with my assent to my Better Half's suggestion (and she's much smarter than I as I'm sure you'll agree) that I counter with megadose COQ10 and B multivits

Jane these events may have helped exacerbate my feelings but this has been going on awhile. There is no question that squinney leaving iced the cake. It didn't change my basic outlook , but it did bring me face to face with the reality of having no partner for the remainder of my life and I CERTAINLY have no desire to seek one out. Meanwhile I still have a handicapped son to care for so my ability to simplify my life any further is pretty much out. I
will in all likelihood die in Raleigh and never get to the beach, never do any travel. I'm resigned.

Vein my condolence for your various travails and indeed I could be dead wrong, that blood fractions have nothing to do with your feelings

However by the sheerest coincidence after my first posting above I note how out-of-sorts this morning, then realize that owing to construction haven't been taking my usual dosage of pills for several days

…..reminding me of an incident when my Better Half reminds me of a period several years ago when she had found me out-of-sorts and cranky; then subsequently we discover I had run out of St John's wort

I know Dale, but you only talk about yourself. This doesn't really help bear (bluevein) at all. He has an entirely different situation as you have and
for you to give advice to take mega doses of COQ10 and B-vitamins is absurd.
You have no idea what medical necessities other people have.
FYI: if you take mega doses of anything, it will just flush down the toilet.
Your body doesn't absorb any excess (which is a good thing).

Give it time, bear! You do sound a bit depressed - it's the season for it as well, but when I see how your 1000+ followers on facebook hang on every word you're saying and actively participate in your discussions, it means you still have your sense of humor and people around you who will listen.

With Obamacare you should be able to get better help for your son. Is there a case worker for him?

Stephen has the best care he can get medically, no complaints there, but the social services programs here are a joke, some of the worst anywhere. I've been trying to find a group home for him for several years...not because I don't want him to stay with me but because I WILL be unavailable at some point and I'm not doing him any favors by not preparing him for that while I can help him transition. There's just nothing good available.

Terrible habit

Yes, no, Jane, I conceded exactly that possibiity in my last posting

Jane, could well be

Yea Jane, its gross ignorance

Yes Jane, I realize that's the official take. However it sets one to wonder why some vits are marketed at 6000 times daily requirement, the single pill; it's as if they're onto something we aren't

Again my sincerest apologies to Throb if I'm so far off the mark

Still………...

Maybe you two should move. North Carolina is ranked 44th in benefiting disabled individuals. South Carolina is 10th I believe. No. 1 is Arizona, but if you can't handle the tremendous heat or the awful politics, I'd stay away.

can't move. At least here I have some work. I can't pull up stakes and go somewhere where all I have is my S.S. and Stephen's S.S.I. That's that no partner throwing a wrench in the works thing.

Alas Jane I'm no doctor that's true. W/psych tho I have a little insight

http://able2know.org/topic/262031-1

No offense Dale, but every one of your posts here is about you, yourself and you again. That's not helpful to anyone!

Okay, fair enough! It's a matter of priority then to get Stephen situated
in a group home. There are 438 group homes in NC - send them all a seasonal email with your Christmas wishes

I hate to keep sounding negative but Wake County is one of the worst in the state. And we're the Capital. Shameful

Alas alack; yet I know the self better than almost anything else

To the contrary, some of my personal insights revealed here have helped hundreds of other participants

Well, maybe a dozen

All right, one or two

I think

Jane, who know what dale might say that would help bear?