What does this answer mean?Among other things

Is your girlfriend a bipolar sociopath?

No,not that i am aware of.I dont know the explanation to that answer she gave me.

Technically, only she would truly understand what she meant, (one would hope that at least she understands herself).

But what she said can't really be good. Sounds like her act was really selfish, foolish and pushed by an arrogant mania that made her feel that she could get away with it. But clearly she might have underestimated her own potential for feeling guilty. Proceed with caution in this relationship.

Put her openly on a very short leash and a kind of relationship parole/probation. If she's unwilling to accept your terms and that's too much then let her go.

She may have meant that she wanted to see if she could do something "forbidden" and get away with it. Or if she had the courage to commit something exciting and "bad." Or to get back at you for who-knows-what.

It was all at YOUR expense.

In any case, now you know what her character is. I say she is a danger to a man's sanity.

Get out now. She certainly has given you an excuse.

Actually within the past few hours the explanation was because it wasn't the real reason.I was told "I didn't know if i was in love with you but after i cheated i realized what i had done and what i would miss" And she did admit to me volunarily the next day that it did happen and she had cried immediatley after the affair.There is remorse.Should i even consider forgiving her?I want to but i am so confused if i would be right doing it

You can forgive her and still end the relationship if you can no longer trust her.

Look, whether you stay in the relationship or not is up to you. Certainly, if you love her and she loves you and is truly sorry, you can get past this. But she will need to understand it won't be easy for you. There may well need to be some guidelines for BOTH of you for activities that don't include you both. Some relationships survive an affair (my parents' relationship did) and some do not. A lot depends on whether you can move on and not be out for revenge. A part of that will be forgiving her and never bringing it up again the next time you guys have an argument.

Couples counseling could be a step in the right direction to help you both get some clarity on why she did it and how to move past it. Good luck.

So she CHEATED to see if she was really in love with you?

H-mmm.

A mature woman would have said, "Listen Fred, I want to explore other relationships. We need to break up and see if you and I are meant to be."

Instead, she sneeked the affair, behind your back.

We are all creatures of habit Jack, chances are if you forgive her and maintain the relationship, given similar circumstance and opportunity, she will do it again, likely expecting you to forgive her again. Do some case study, it rarely ends well to allow someone to get away with treating your heart like a crash dummy

Don't let anyone treat you with less respect than you deserve. Ever.

I think she wasn't all "in love" anymore (see the word infatuation), wanted to explore, and didn't want to lose an ok relationship at the same time. So that is one thing.

Then she told you. That's another. Big arrow to the heart.

I think love is an activity of caring over time. Not all mushy either. Right now she seems entirely self oriented. Maybe too young for commitment.