@wonder91,
Please, wonder, wherever you live, I hope you get help. I have a bias for university hospitals, but their emergency rooms can be stuffed. However, you get interviewed, and they will put you up in line if you explain. That would be at least a start.
I think there are suicide hot lines, whatever place you live, at least in the u.s. Just call the telephone operator.
I think the people who answer may know how to help.
Be honest with whomever you talk with.