@wonder91,
Sure you can.
I used to steal from my mother just to get a drink, have the next thing to an anxiety attack if I had to go in to take an exam at university without a load on. I was a semi-functional alcoholic for more than 40 years. Haven't had a drink now for 17 years, four months, five days and several hours.
Seek help. I suggest a call to Alcoholics Anonymous (they're in your phone book, right near the front). Read the 'Big Book' of
Alcoholics Anonymous, go to meetings, talk to other people like yourself who have kicked or are kicking the habit.
I'm 74 years of age now and the past 17 years have been, hands down, the best years of my life. It's amazing how different the world looks when you can view it with a clear vision. You need help. I suggest you seek it.