food death, dieing help

Something has to change
For the past 7 – 8 days I’ve been buying and eating the most stupid foods, junk food from chocolate to BK to McDonalds. These foods make me feel sick. Directly after eating and I’m pretty sure they effect my thinking for a few days after. I absolutely have to stop eating these foods. It’s a matter of life or death literally these foods will shave years off my life. I’ve been feeling not depressed but wrecked in the heat lately. I feel like I have no control of the situation. I’m looping I’ll say something like one last time or this is the only time I’ll do it, then sometimes later that day or definitely the next day I’m eating the **** again.

I spent $100 on water purification equipment yesterday and I said I wouldn’t eat any more junk now that I can drink pure water, but then the very next day at the stroke of mid night I’m at the gas station eating 3 chocolate bars and a coffee. I have to do it now, No going back now what so ever if I have no fresh healthy raw food to eat then I’m going to eat nothing at all. A person can survive a month without food so if I have to go a day without eating so be it. Chocolate is the one I must stay away from at all costs, chocolate and sugary treats. From this point onwards for the rest of my entire ******* life I’m going to eat raw food only , raw fruits and vegetables.

After about a month of this it will be the norm and I won’t even have to think about eating anything else. At the moment buying junk food and consuming it runs through my mind every hour at least! It’s like I’m trapped in a prison and my weight is ballooning out of control. If I don’t take care of this NOW! I will die. I’m writing this with extended emphasis so that it sticks in my brain, the next time I pass a fast food restaurant I know what I’m going to be thinking but I need to remember writing this message so that I don’t go on the same loop again. Einstein actually said the definition of insane is someone who keeps doing the same thing over and over expecting different results, so I guess the fact that I keep going into Burger King and getting a combo saying to myself “This is my last combo! Then I’m done” makes me insane. So be it because I feel these foods are driving me insane. I’ve done all the research and I know for sure that raw food is the best diet for a human being. We we’re never designed to eat meat yet we can tolerate it.

For example our jaws move from side to side like a cows jaw and other herbivores, our intestines are very long and designed to break up the complex protein & fibre’s of vegetables, it takes much less time to break down meat protein and absorb it into the blood, that’s why lions and other such carnivores have a short intestinal track. Another obvious reason we should not be eating meat or even chocolate for that matter is that when we evolved into the body we have today we never had the teeth to bite into the raw flesh of a dead carcass. Not until we developed large processing brains was it possible for us to burn meat into a tender eatable food, or even the ability to make chocolate didn’t come until millennia after. Some scientists speculate it was the fact that we ate meat that gave our brains the ability to grow into the large processing plants they are today. Even if that is true eating meat now isn’t going to make us any smarter. If what some scientists speculate is true then the evolution of the brain through the proteins of meat would take place over long durations of time. So eating meat now has no health or intellectual benefit. Especially the over processed and devoid of nutrient meat we eat today.

Eating meat has been linked to heart disease. Sometimes after I finish the two burgers and fries and drinks from Burger King I feel like I’m about to have a heart attack. I need to remember this piece of writing next time I drive passed one of those mind controlling food distribution stations. I seriously think that these foods have mind altering effects. I know that MSG binds to neurons in the tongue is how we taste it. That’s how we get that umami or savoury taste. I know that most of the foods in super markets today contain MSG and so this leads me to believe that so do all the fast food outlets. KFC’s secret herbs and spices ya know? Why do they keep that **** on the down low? I think the MSG in these fast foods is one of the reasons I can’t stay away from them, they must be affecting my neurons in my brain in such a way that it causes addiction. Maybe it works like the chemical norepinephrine, It’s a chemical compound that is released in the brain when we feel our thoughts must be protected from the influence of others, it actually temporarily blocks some of our memory’s physically causing narrow minded-ness. Maybe the MSG works in a similar way blocking out all my passed desires and wills. This is all speculation of course and it’s just my miserable attempt to explain my lack of willpower. Maybe I need a cloak with +55 Willpower? (RPG reference for the nerds out their)
If there’s anyone outing with a similar situation please share so I don’t feel so alone. Or if you can share with me some advice or information that may help me please, please help me.