Oh, god, I'm really tearing my hair out over this one.
Lawyerdude still hasn't gotten back to me about the insurance plan.
I followed up twice with business manager about Plan B. (He had said in the meeting that he had one, but didn't want to say in front of everyone, wanted to stay positive.) Nothing from him. Then, an email with the subject "Plan B", to the executive committee + me, and a revised budget. That's nice, I'm happy about it, good job, long overdue,
but it's not a Plan B. It is a revised budget. It still assumes that we will be able to get some $80,000 more (from registrations, exhibit fees, sponsorship, whatever.) It still says nothing about what will happen IF we don't have enough money.
The budget itself is insane. I asked where the $10,000 was that was left over from the first conference -- "Oh, it's been used for PR, etc., etc" OK, but where is it in the budget? "Well I had to use it so there wasn't a deficit..." HUH? For example, only some of the money I have raised appears under "fundraising." The rest is "gone", because it was used to reduce the shortfall of the New Year's Eve event.
Insane.
We had a meeting and the chair and I successfully, I think, argued that it was insane and could he please make a budget that shows all of the money, what came in, what went out, what projected expenses are, and what projected revenues are?
Lots of heat on his side, but he came around.
The problem is, with all of this moving things around, it is impossible to tell how much money is still needed. I mean, obviously, as much as possible, but in terms of finding some sort of a line -- where I could reasonably say, I raised this much money, therefore I'm going to stop -- the line, when it can be found at all, keeps moving.
I haven't been this stressed about something in quite a while.
If this were a hearing group, I would just up and leave, let the chips fall where they may. My husband, in talking about this (possible lawsuits, et al) tried to help me get the guts to just leave by saying, "This is our financial future" [if the board is sued] and I countered with "Making too many enemies is our financial future, too." The Deaf community is just tiny, and if the wrong people say the wrong things to people in Ohio, that seriously impacts my career opportunities.
The move is useful, here, in that the realtors are encouraging us to make a serious househunting trip in mid to late April. We will be there for a while, and I need to focus on that 100%. So I am planning at this point to try to pull in a couple more major donations, then announce that I will be quitting in a couple of weeks, the reason is househunting trip, have a bunch of stuff all ready to hand off; complete records, thank-you letter templates, a final report, etc., etc; and then just go.
Some things I am trying to figure out -- the chair has been sympathetic lately (arguing with business manager to make sure all of the funds I have raised actually appear in the budget, for example), and I am thinking of going to her first, and asking for her support during the meeting where I announce it in general.
Oh god this is going to be bad.
Any advice most appreciated.