@PUNKEY,
Yeah, im not suicidal, im deathly afraid to die! I mean i have been depresse where i thought about it, and wish it. But thats just the depression taking over my mind, and you dont care about life. Anyway im not depresse right now, im far from it, i just have these fears that take over me. Unlike depression it dosnt go away. Today, i had to go icefishing for the first time, which involves driving on the ice. I was deathly ill, all i thought about was in going to die, this ice is going crack, and im going to fall through. I did take some breaths, but i found out none has fun around me, cause of this.