Is it wrong of me to think your exboyfriend's actions aren't proper sign of either love or respect?
That kind of pure psyhcopathic selfishness (I can't have you then no one can mentality) shouldn't be confused with sincere love, honor, or passion.
My second boyfriend threw me in a road when there was a car coming because he loved me and I split up with him because I didn't love him anymore.
The last kind of 'thing' I had, kind of moved country for, actually, kind of enjoyed the fact he had the ability to rationalise us not being together, where as I was more upset. I know he thinks I'm super, he has tried his best to treat me with respect, and he says that he thinks I am worth a lot.
Is it weird that I would kind of rather he had just gone mental and thrown me in a road?
Figure out what you want out of a relationship and what you don't want and then go from there. You only can be treated like a doormat if you allow it...