@CalamityJane,
Agrees with CJane. (Neither here nor there but to clarify, I'm an older woman)
Questions, Travis, if you wish to answer -
your approximate age?
kind of town or city or rural area you live in? (don't need to be specific at all)
what your school is like, and are there any counselors worth a hill of beans?
any relatives you trust to talk with? I'm assuming not but don't want to presume there aren't.