Still in love after 10 years apart

14 years ago I met a fantastic woman. I was 30, she was 23. We served together in the British forces, and got on like a house on fire.

After 2 years together we had a beautiful daughter, and life was still good. I had changed occupations though, and was spending more and more time away from home due to work commitments.

Our daughter had just turned 1 year old when we seemed to drift apart. I started having an affair with a woman I met in a bar, and before we knew it my partner and I had split up.

I was still working all over the place, my ex was still in the armed forces and moving around a lot, and within a couple of years we totally lost contact.

Roll the clock forward to last year. By now I had met someone else and we had been living together for about 7 years. One day out of the blue I get a Facebook request from my 12 year old daughter. I was apprehensive, but also excited.

We struck up a slow relationship, trying to get to know each other, trying to plan a meeting, trying to recover 10 lost years. Then one day she mentioned that she was going out with her 'dad'. My ex had gotten married 5 years ago and my daughter looked to this guy as her dad. I was gutted.

Move on to early this year. We had moved on from Facebook chat to making the occasional phone call, and even arranged a reunion. We were getting there.....slowly.

The big day came. For the first time in 10 years I met my daughter......and saw my ex. BOOM!!!! I thought my heart was going to explode in my chest. She looked fantastic. I had to put this aside though. Today was about my daughter. So, that's what I did, and we had a great day.

Time passed and I stayed in touch with my daughter as best I could. Things were strained, but I was expecting it. I was a stranger to her. I also started chatting with my ex, and before we knew it we were talking less about our daughter, and more about us and our past.

Within a couple of months we were planning another meeting. Not just father and daughter. We were talking about starting an affair! We both knew it was wrong, but something about it felt so right.

And so, last week, I went to visit my daughter. Before I met up with her I had arranged to meet up with my ex. We needed to talk face to face and try and work out what was going on.

Neutral ground, a public bar, and within minutes we were looking into each others eyes, holding hands, laughing, and chatting like we'd never been apart. We decided to wait and see what happened. There were too many variables being messed with at the same time. Marriage, partnerships, kids, work, homes, the list was endless. We left the bar and went to catch the train to meet our daughter from school.

As we waited on the platform we chatted, we laughed, but then...... we kissed. Not a peck, but a full on, deep, passionate, incredible kiss. It felt like no kiss I'd ever had with anyone else in my entire life! We looked at each other, both said "Oh ****", and then kissed again and again until the train arrived.

The following day was spent taking my daughter on a shopping trip, and I had a fantastic time. We were getting there slowly. She still talked about her 'dad', and referred to me by my first name, but slowly, slowly we were building something.

In the evening, 'dad' came to pick up my daughter, and for some crazy reason my ex asked him if it was OK for her to go out for a drink with me. He said yes!

We had a brilliant evening together, but it culminated in us both being naked in my hotel room and declaring our new-born love for each other!

Now, I'm back at home. My head is in a total mess. My ex's head is the same. We're on the phone or texting constantly. I do truly think we are in love again, and I know that when we're together it feels amazingly right!

I can't talk to anyone about this. My ex can't either. There's a million tons of background story that I've not even mentioned. I guess this is just me needing to tell someone.

I don't know if I have any questions. I'm pretty sure someone out there has some answers though.