@peter jeffrey cobb,
Based upon the replies here, I hope you see you are welcome here. Intelligence has not much to do with education. Don't worry about that part. I love these kind of forums where you can have open discussions with people you would not be likely to meet in real life, or if you did, wouldn't bring up the things we talk about here. I think it's great.
You are very welcome here, at least by me, for what that's worth. And, we all say things we regret sometimes, and react emotionally. Don't worry about it.
If being here helps you and give you an outlet, hang around by all means.
You have my sincere sympathies with your disease. I can't imagine what a struggle it could be.
Just by being as open as you have been you have already put yourself in the upper percent here in my book.
You aren't related to a Mr. Cobb on a motorcycle adventure board I've been on, are you?