Please only answer if you have a serious response to the question. I'd like some feedback on how intrusive thoughts originate, operate, and the best methods for managing them. Specifically, violent thoughts originating in traumatic events.
A bit more detail: the nature of the thoughts are not of being violent or aggression on other people. Simply put, they are intrusive thoughts of horrible violent situations occurring. Even more specifically, it is a particular form of bodily harm and a mental terror that goes along with it that has some basis in experience/sights in ones life. Not to one personally, but having someone close to you and others go through extremely violent injuries and also death.
In other words, I'm asking about ptsd again, but in particular - the nature of these thought experiences which as so intense and severe and intrusive, and the best methods yet found to manage them.
Also, I don't want to go into too much personal detail but would like to hear a more general sense of how this all works and perhaps new ideas on it.
I'm no authority, but here are some of my thoughts...
I think instrusive thoughts originate by some trigger that you may not even be aware of.
Case in point, a couple of weeks ago I was having my rolfer work on my feet. Our bodies hold all sorts of emotions and memories in different parts of our bodies.
At one point, when she was manipulating my foot in a certain way, I said. "This reminds me of a paper I had to write in college, about foot binding. It was a very difficult thing to do. I'd get nauseated while researching and writing it."
She of course she asked me if she were hurting me. I said "No, this feels really good" She didn't say anything for a few moments, then said, "Chai, we've known each other quite a while now. I wouldn't normally bring this up with someone, but we know something about each others beliefs. I'm wondering why you remembered that when I was doing that?"
At first I just said "Well, because you were working on my feet, and I thought about foot binding because something you did reminded me of wrapping the foot"
She said "But you said you were nauseated back then....why?"
I thought and said... "Because they were little girls. They didn't have any say so in the matter. They were helpless."
She touched my "helpless against what THEY were going to make me do" emotional center.
But, in this case, she released it, and, thinking about it now, I have experienced this kind of freedom and self direction in the past couple of weeks.
In yoga, when meditating, all thoughts are intrusive. Instead of fighting them, you see them come in, acknowledge them, then let them leave, knowing they are serving no purpose at that moment.
Not a typical intrusive thought, but one may find themselves with the thought "Chicken sandwich" because you are getting hungry and your brain wants to solve this problem by deciding what the next meal is going to be. But you don't need to think about that then, there will be time soon to let the brain do that. So, you acknowledge you thought about a chicken sandwich, then, you let it go off. It's hard to explain, but it leaves you with no thoughts for amounts of time, which is lovely.
I think that's how all thoughts operatate, they are trying to perform a function, even when there is nothing to perform.
I think that's what makes up the feelings of anxiety. You assume there must be some function if you are thinking something, but, that is not true.
Occupying your mind with another function that needs to be performed, gently bringing your thoughts back to the task at hand when the intrusive thoughts come by to visit.
That's all they are doing, is visiting.
It takes practice to make their visits less often.
On the other hand, if you can find the physical release from these thoughts, I think that would help a lot in curtailing them.