Sun 29 Aug, 2010 06:49 pm
My doctor just diagnosed me with that disorder, which ruined most of my life. Anything and everything triggers it, even practically nothing. I never been able to shake off my worries and I go into a panic attack. My heart rate into the 100's and shallow breathing, etc. In fact, that's what interfered with my job performance in the past.
My first job was at Goody's. I did well there and my supervisor gave me a good reference when the store closed. I had high level of anxiety then, but the job was laid back and I didn't have many hours. Fast forward to Wal-Mart. The job was really fast paced and I had 33 hours a week. My performance reiview wasn't as good as I had hoped, just "adequete" so I panicked. When my coworker wrongly blamed me for the cart of returns that didn't get put away, I got angry bc I panicked. If coworker could wrongly blame me, then so could management. I guess I got myself canned to relieve any additional anxiety.
Then at McD's, it was fast paced and I also got shitload of hours. Almost every day, something makes me worried disproportionate to the situation at hand. I always had to go there and check if anything "bad" had happened even on my days off. Then one day, when they called and said they weren't busy and they ain't need me that day, I worried it was cuz of the discount meal I almost took home the day before. I panicked, so I went down there to apologize but I screamed it out.
My heart rate be in the 100's and I can't breathe. Now for practically no reason, I'm terrified over BK.
@dirrtydozen22,
Seek counseling, they'll be able to address the issues. I practice deep breathing and after awhile it works, it actually slows the heart beat down so you're able to relax. When I worry about things unnecessarily, and we all do it, I try to put things into perspective or talk about it to a good friend, one that understands me and calms my worries. Hope it goes well for you.
@Caroline,
Thanks. I just worry irrationally about things most ppl would shrug off. Could I combine counseling with meds?
@dirrtydozen22,
Do you go through it in your head and rationalize it when you're worried because things like this take work and although hard at first it will get easier.
It's good to try to solve things without meds, meds should be used in extreme cases but what do I know, I'm not a Dr. Talk to your Dr and ask him for help such as counseling. I dont know what is best for you, I can only sympathize as I know how these things can just take over your life. You need all the help you can get so talk to a good friend or get some advice from your Dr.
You may be surprised that panic attacks are not so difficult to treat. Yes, just see a counselor, or your primary doctor. They will send you where you need to go.
@Caroline,
The more I rationalize, the more I worry. Instead of giving me answers, I just have more questions. Most of them are irrational worries. I will talk to my dr about this.
@chai2,
I'm taking zoloft and xanax and ppl still scare the hell out of me. I need to see my counselor more often.
@dirrtydozen22,
Okay maybe not a good idea. I think you need counseling to address your thought patterns and to change them. Best of luck to you.
Anxiety Disorders Association of America (ADAA)
http://www.adaa.org/
Symptoms, Treatment, and Self-Help
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/generalized_anxiety_disorder.htm
Try to find work that does not involve always having to "please" someone. Food servers and hair stylists have it rough. You are always at the mercy of pleasing the public.
Try to get a job that is "behind the scenes" and socialize outside of work.
So, hang on, your doctor diagnosed you with an anxiety disorder and the two of you didn't discuss there and then a plan of attack? Maybe you should seek a new doctor.
You're already on medications, yes? And you already go to see a counselor? Who prescribes your medication - the doctor or the counselor?
Find a good, talented, mental health care professional
and explain your history. From your earlier posts,
over the last several years, I 've thought that subconsciously,
u were trying to harm yourself, and for that reason
getting people mad at u (like screaming out an apology, instead of saying it nicely)
U might wish to consider
whether u believe that u ever did something bad,
morally rong, for which u try to punish yourself, out of guilt.
From your posts, it seemed to me
that your subconscious mind was trying to move u to punish yourself by getting people mad at u
and doing bad things to u, like firing u or reducing your pay.
Find a GOOD psychologist or psychiatrist (a medical doctor who specializes in the mind).
Sometimes those services can be provided for free.
U shoud inquire.
I wish u the best of luck.
U r probably a nice person.
If your subconscious mind is acting out of perceived guilt
(right or rong) and if people stop punishing u,
then I wonder whether u will turn to other means of self-harm,
e.g., drug addiction, alcohol, etc.
David
@OmSigDAVID,
I think you have this right.
@OmSigDAVID,
Since my anxiety had the best of me, I think that's what's tryna **** me up. When BK called on Saturday and said they won't need me that night, I panicked. I thought it was cuz of the credit card ****. When I went to ask today, it turned out that they simply wasn't busy. They called 2 other ppl besides me not to go to work that day. God she was short with me when she told me. I'm tired of panicking for no reason. I'm tired of anxiety attacks. They cost me all my jobs except Goody's.
@chai2,
chai2 wrote:I think you have this right.
Thank u. After I lost Joyce's friendship, per her advice,
I found a very talented psychologist; he was
good at what he did.
He cleaned up the remnants of my obsession very well; he did good work.
David
@OmSigDAVID,
I wish I'm not so fucked up. Anyway, I just came out of them bar bc I need to feel better. DO you know she was SHORT with me when I asked?
@dirrtydozen22,
dirrtydozen22 wrote:Since my anxiety had the best of me, I think that's what's tryna **** me up. When BK called on Saturday and said they won't need me that night, I panicked. I thought it was cuz of the credit card ****. When I went to ask today, it turned out that they simply wasn't busy. They called 2 other ppl besides me not to go to work that day. God she was short with me when she told me. I'm tired of panicking for no reason. I'm tired of anxiety attacks. They cost me all my jobs except Goody's.
I respectfully request that when u express yourself,
u do
not refer to excrement. Believe me: that does not reflect good credit on U.
David
@dirrtydozen22,
dirrtydozen22 wrote:I wish I'm not so fucked up. Anyway, I just came out of them bar bc I need to feel better.
DO you know she was SHORT with me when I asked?
Maybe she was in a nasty mood.
Maybe 's she 's mad at her husband or her son or a bill collector.
David
@OmSigDAVID,
what excrement? like srsly i wanna kno
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