Re: truth
JLNobody wrote: But if I have any sense of mystical/existential insight I believe it really began to develop when I gave up on focused approaches (either counting or just watching the breath or feeling the "hara"). I began to use no focus at all, to begin mediation with a perfectly ordinary state of mind, passively observing WHATEVER comes to conscious but not focusing on it, letting it come and go "of its own accord." Letting the "Witness" or "Atman" gain a dominance in my perspective (without my trying to focus on it at all). This has been over the last ten years. But all this has resulted in no flashes of truth or "enlightenment", only a growing sense (more unconscious than conscious) that Reality--"my" reality of the on-going moment--is complete and wanting in nothing.
JLNobody's experience is what I have suspected to be true for quite a while. It seems to me that most meditations are of the focused type as opposed to being unfocused. Focusing on transcending, I think, is somewhat like trying to get to sleep by counting sheep. Mostly, all that does, is keep you in the waking state as you are engaging in activity (waking state) instead of letting it go.
That your reality of the moment is complete indicates, I believe, a reduction in ego. (See my reference to Ken Wilber at the end of my second post.)
There is an idea that the foundation of reality is Consciousness and that by the elimination of ego, we can become aware at that level being no longer the individual but, instead, the universal.
I can speak from my thirty years of the daily experience of TM. Things have spontaneously occurred over the years but have generally not been "flashy", just unpredictable. Things like the development of an inner happiness have occurred.
Although recently, I did have an extraordinary experience - at least for me. I was in deep sleep and was experiencing pure awareness. Then I was disturbed by a hum of sorts and awoke. Was this a dream I wondered. I think not. There were none of the usual delusional qualities of dreaming and the awareness experienced was awareness of no thing. Others have reported similar experiences but when you experience something first hand, it is a lot more significant.