@Grimlock,
Grimlock wrote:Here is the contradiction that is pulling you apart. A Yea or Nay as the the existence of absolute "truth" will at least give you a direction home. If objective (or even subjective?) truth exists (option 2), then look for it and learn to apply it rigorously to your life. If truth does not exist (option 1), then learn to stop looking for (or inventing) roadsigns that aren't there.
I'd go for option 1, but it's your show.
If I go with option 1, how can I even live... period?
I mean, the whole point of this journey, I would have thought, was to come to some truth. If I live with the realization there is no truth, then I should go outside, murder an old lady, watch the movie 300 eight times, burn down a rain forest, plant a rain forest, strip naked whilst running down my street screaming, "I HAVE AIDS", donate to a charity, apply for a prominent accounting position, and rape a horse all in one day. Never should I address morals, values, or the mundane activities associated with much of society. I will inevitably be a recluse, and wind up in Ancora psychiatric facility. If no reasons matter, and I go with number 1, I have no reason to live. And if I have no reason to live, I sure as hell won't waste the rest of my existence pondering anything even psuedo-intellectual...
I may as well just go out, fcuk, drink, and smoke as much weed as my body will allow until my consciousness drifts away and I die (and no, this isn't an over exaggeration - in fact, many of my peers actually live in this manner).
Believing a truth exists, objective or subjective, allows me to function. It gives me purpose. If there is no greater fulfillment or reason for having lived the examined life, why lead it? The only thing my peers worry of are mundane issues regarding work life, drama issues regarding the opposite sex, and primarily focus on achieving a state of happiness at any given time. They scream, "Let's go out and get laid", while I scream, "Let's ponder the existence of sparticles". Maybe they have the "right", the most sane, philosophy - lessen pain. seek happiness. die.