@esax22,
I feel the same exact way. D:
It's nice to know there are others who understand instead of hearing "No i never went through that." It makes me lose so much hope. But then others who agree and tell me there relationship is good makes me gain hope.
Basically it's about the same thing. My boyfriend says he doesn't wanna lose me and i don't want to lose him, i want everything to go back the same but i've learned that it won't. But i want to at least feel SOMETHING. Just something. At times i feel like maybe i don't but that's usually doubt poisoning my mind. At times i feel good, we're best friends hanging out and we'll kiss here and there and it'll be nice, but then other times i don't want to really be near him. I HATE feeling this 'cause it's making me sick. I keep throwing up, i can't sleep, i keep crying. I want all this to go away. I want to feel happy and in love like i did, but like how someone pointed it out, some are addicted to excitement and who knows, maybe i am. BUT I AM NOT giving into that. I'm not giving in to my addiction to feel the butterfly feelings and excitement. All i do wish is this feeling to go away. All this doubt, all these thoughts running through my mind..
Is it normal to even feel a little less attracted to that person? I think, in a way, it is. 'Cause if you're in that lovey dovey stage NOTHING seems wrong with them, AT ALL. Everything is perfect. Goodness, help me.. please.