maybe she doesnt like me..
Heh. Maybe she doesn't. You should first find out if the girl likes you before you get emotionally attached & before you start to care so much. And if she liked you, and you two have done "whatever" (that means she's not a shy girl who'd hide her true feelings from you, most likely), I think you'd know. She'd be leaving you hints or whatnot. Maybe she has been, and you missed them. Maybe she was never really interested in you that way and like most men, just had intimacy on her mind and not a relationship.
oh well, damnit i just have to get over it. i just feel like im missing something, my longest relationship is like 1 month by the way hahaha.
Yeah I think you should get over her. For now, at least. You don't know her feelings for you, so why bother caring so much? At least try to find out what you mean to her. Ask.
And... Oh wow. Do you take relationships seriously, even? Maybe that's your problem. Or maybe it's girls you date. You might be after the wrong kind of girl for a serious relationship. Some girls don't like commitment (as is the case with many men) but you might be trying to get with a girl who only lives for short flings.
oh the joy of just cuddling! ugh im a nerd.
Aww that is not nerdy in any way, that is sweet! My first impression of you just went up by a couple points. =]