Okay, the stuff about you looking intimidating, or, uh, crazy...I was actually going to ask you about that exact thing on the thread about getting a job, then I decided not to for some reason.
So do you think you might be sending out some pretty obvious chip-on-your-shoulder signals to people?--like the guy you talked to about the job working with animals who told you they'd only take someone with professional experience, I just have this image of you asking this dude to take a chance on you while all the time you're sending him a clear message of "I'm just barely refraining from cussing you out"...
I've known a *lot* of people like that, who talk about how things never seem to go their way-- and I'm thinking, well, duh, it's because the rest of us actually CAN tell how pissy you are about everything! I used to notice people doing that a lot when they applied for jobs at places I worked; they'd come in and say things like "God, I've already applied ten places and I have no idea why no one's hiring me," and meanwhile they look sullen and frustrated and basically like no one you'd want to hire in a million years...and they usually seemed to think that either no one would notice this obnoxious bad attitude (it seemed like a lot of them assumed that other people were too stupid to notice much), or else that it would make people want to
help them if they made it clear how unfair life is to them (it
doesn't make people want to help, it makes people want to shake you).
This goes for looking for relationships, too...I've known (& unfortunately been asked out by many of them) lots of guys who ask girls out with this obvious air of "If you turn me down you're a f@#kin bitch"...and nothing makes you want to turn a guy down more