am i wrong in feeling betrayed?

when i got laid off i didnt have money for like 3 months, i mean 900 dollars i paid thinking i had somewhere stable when in fact i dont.

900 fuckin dollars i could have kept to move out on my own, and i paid it off.


why do i always pay my debts off instead of taking care of myself? i need to get over it or something im not sure.

and to top it off today my cousin told me "straight up dude lower your standards, your poor your not gonna get a good looking girl and you know it"

jeez, bad day i guess.

well you know what, i knew what i was getting into.


Ill just have to find somewhere new! this is a good thing. even tho i have no clothes to u know like take an interview with that doesnt matter i need some jeans i stole a grip of high-end dress shirts.


lol as im saying this i literally havent ate in like 3 days. thats another inconvenience but i got a bag of rice so i will rough it for a few weeks again and then ill get a weekly or something.

im glad i have u guys to talk to lol, even if ur not listening.

Las Vegas unemployment is only slightly above the national average ...why can't you land a job??? Take care of that a many problems go away.

I'm confused why they can toss you out given you've prepaid the rent..

That was killer cheap rent. What was that place? Was it under the table?

Well if you were in my city or roundabouts I'd buy you a meal, maybe even cook for you. You need to eat.

So what's the situation...how long you got to find another place?

Don't take this the wrong way, it does sound like a hard day, but I'm kinda glad that you have this opportunity to get away from the drugs. Getting away from all that crap really helps put a person in a new place for some peace and security in their lives.

lol i guess i just landed a job.. haha. wierd you know...


**** i keep goint thru **** and then right when its unbearable it just intstantly changes direction.


god damn for real im so tired.


well im pretty sure its just me, im not really likeable so im not like #1 for getting hired, even when im like trying to act all professional they never hire me.

i owe 50$ for may, but they really expect me to pay nexts month rent , and they want me on my way out. how does that work out exactly?


just like when i was living with my dad. charge me rent and expect me to move out, and then try to raise my rent to get me out faster?

one is complaining i dont pitch in for the power bill. ok its only 100 not even, and its getting split 2 ways

i just want maturity, you know? i want a woman not a fuckiing girl, i want friends who are mature.

30 year old man breaks down crying in front of me like 5 times this year.
lol, i meant 30 year old boy. yeah that sounds right.



My cousin was right tho, they are using me. when i had a pc they were at my house every-single-day, when i have money they are sure as **** to be at home waiting for me, when they got money they are sure to be gone for the whole week. when im paying more than half the rent, even after utilities and they complain im not working, even when im cutting grass, fixing the blown down fence.they want me to pay 50 more dollars a month.you guys see where im going? they are like effing parasites pure and simple, straight up bloodsuckers.

i dont know why i think they care, well one isnt so bad hes just old midlife crisis type ****, whatever.

no rent from me anymore! for realios. i need to be on my own. now i get to spend the next few days trying to find a cheap place that accepts pitbulls.

let the games begin.

Man, OGIONIK, that's some pretty harsh ****! Can I help a brother out? Need a place to stay or something?

you know, its not so bad.

rather funny now that i take a step back and look at the big picture, im gettin all hung up on stuff that doesnt, well it DOES matter, but not as much as other stuff.


not to mention they let my dog outside for like 12 hours one day, then another day i walked to my house to see her being chased by an animal control guy.

O_o

Jeebus, this is why we don't live with druggies, see?

From what little I know, based on my brother and his dad and friends during their messed-up days, druggies are kinda known for this stuff, ya know? milk people for more than their fair share of work, rent, whatever...and then also act fussy and whiny and ill-used, too.

As Mushy said, use this as your chance to get away from that poisonous nonsense. Blah.

lol i think u hit it spot on.


oh guys its so much worse than ive even written here, 2-3 days ago mr druggoe goes to my cousins house, because a guy that hates mr druggoe buys weed from my cousin. he was like if he doesnt talk to me we can get my friends and dad involved then it will be chaos.


mr druggoe got choke slammed fyi, then he proceeded to get half of my family to the point where the want to disown me by talkin **** and throwing things thru their windows.


it was hilarious, but they still hate me. i guess i picked the wrong roomates, well i didnt have a choice.

I might be non-violent, but it was sure nice to see him get kicked in the mouth.

I have no idea what you're talking about but that's okay, I don't really need to know.

Did you say you got a job?

Why not look in the paper for a room for rent with a family or a couple of normal people, at least?

Move out when they're out of the house, man.

I do think women should be the last thing on your mind right now. Get yourself a job, at Burger King or wherever, get some money coming in and get away from those losers!

Good luck.

thats not true, sex is like the only real stress reliever, everything else is like a stress-delayer.

yeah this whole situation sucks. im so over it.

(but it is so true what they say " sex is like air, it only matter when ur not getting any")

i am lookin at some houses in the projects they r really cheap. sounds bad but its not really that awful.

yay and a place to get root canals for 250 and extraction for 75

Big talk. Sex is not the only stress reliever. Walking away from this stuff, calming down by non drug means (yoga? buddhism? meditation? jogging, walking) working, acceptance of yourself and what you can do if you stop with all this garbage. Including stopping about the "I am not likeable" stuff. Move on. Get counselling. We know you are bright.

well theres got to be a reason they aren't hiring me.

im pretty sure it cuz im wearing jeans or something. good thing about losing my wallet is that i didnt spend nay money so i can actually buy interview pants or something.



fyi counselling costs money and/or time. neither of which i can afford.

thanks for being kind and replying.

Others here know more about various kinds of counselling than I do. I do know back in Venice, you could get referrals for counsellors to see in the evening. I've had counsellor friends who did free hours, or something like $10.00. I don't know if that's available in Sin City, but it might be. You could use more support than just from us.

Good re place to live...

on clothes, you're talking to the thrift shop queen. Sadly, clothes choices sure can matter, though not always. We hired a woman once with her shoes stapled and her hem stapled... she's now has a doctorate in and teaches pharmacology at a state university. Grooming, piercings, can matter. Hygiene can matter. Attitude may matter most, if you get that far. See... a counsellor..

hehe ill get right on it i guess

good god i think i have to work today.


that sucks, i ate a lunchable yesterday and i