Chai wrote:
Where'd you learn that?
I am fascinated by compulsion and addiction and read a lot of research on it. I've seen that particular tactic advised on Oprah's site about quitting smoking and elsewhere on the subject on compulsions.
heh, before getting on zoloft, my compulsion to count things, and add things up, was getting pretty bad, and I had what was only considered borderline OCD, had more the panic thing.
I do remember after starting the drug, being told that if I felt that need to count or add, to resist it...I couldn't do that before. It was comforting, the calculator was my security blanket.
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Bella, when I read the title of your thread, I was assuming you were not speaking in the strictly clinical sense.
Do you actually feel you do have a compulsion? Meaning irresistable and building, the need to do whatever activity it is only stopping (temporarily) until the next time?
I was taking you seriously of course as far as your problem, but do you feel this is an actual complusion?
Curious.
BTW, the funniest thing I ever read about compulsions was David Sedaris short piece entitled "A Plague of Ticks".
My favorite line...."I didn't HAVE to touch my nose to the lawn gnome, I WANTED to"
Sort of like my favorite statement?
"I have willpower, I just don't use it".
Don't run w/ baby in a sling/backpack/baby bjorn. Perfectly imitates shaken baby syndrome.
bella, you must sleep. you must sleep enough for many reasons, but i doubt you'll be able to do much until you sleep enough. personal experience speaking here, from one compulsive eater to another. when you're tired, willpower goes down the drain. enlist your husband, work together, make sure you're getting a good night sleep. if you must, take valerian root or something, but do take care of the sleep. you'll see what magic that can do.
Totally agree about the sleep thing. Not enough sleep turns me into a train wreck.
Seriously, I'm like a different person. With sleep, I'm *fairly* normal and disciplined. Living on the edge of waking and dozing, I'm an addicted manic-depressive mess who'll eat whatever is there and lots of it.
Do you need a hand or two or three?
Wanted to let you know that it sounds like you are doing fabulously, so can you give yourself some slack?
Even if you want to punch my lights out right now because I don't truly understand raising a kid, two dogs, marriage, and full time work, and everything else on your plate - can you rally your friends and troops maybe a bit so you can get in some zz's ??
And don't punch me now...but...time alone with hubby too maybe? Feel crude saying it..but there is one other thing after sleep that I know if I am not getting everything else goes wonky...
yeah..anyways...I hope it all works out for you.
