stuh505 wrote:
For me it would take courage and sacrifice because I would first have to sacrifice the idea that I am in control of myself...and that's a dangerous and unresponsible thing, in my book.
Hahaha!!!
Do you mean you would have to sacrifice the idea that you are in control of not just yourself but also external circumstances and how they can affect you?
That not everything is in your control...try and you might...strong as you are....determined as all get go?
'Cause that is the position I held when I went in to see the Doc for a physical and to finally lay it on the line. To say, "Look Doc, I am depressed. Help me please."
Of course, he asks me questions and checks things off a list, does a quick n' sloppy diagnosis and then says "Well, I can give you antidepressants if you wish. I would be willing to do that. This is obviously affecting your life."
I did not and have not chosen the route of antidepressants. It scares me to feel control is taken away from me - and drugs of any sort do that. Once they are in your system, it is a commitment to see what happens. To take a risk and experiment.
Instead, I talk. I see someone. I
work each and every day to challenge assumptions like the one above in quotes!
If I didn't, I'd probably be laying in bed right now. Trying to will my way out of it without changing a thing in my mind.
I don't assume to know what it is like for others. I do know that for some of us, sometimes, it is precisely beliefs and ways of coping with life that led us and keep us in a depression.
It is not easy to accept how little control we actually have over our lives sometimes. I know it has been hard for me to start coming to acceptance of it.
It sure can be liberating, though.
Sometimes I wonder how much pain and time I could have saved if only I had had the balls earlier to admit [/I]I didn't know what to do
. Y'know, that I was overwelmed. I didn't have nice clean control on the situation anymore.
Antidepressants may have helped me.