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Thu 16 Mar, 2006 05:04 pm
okay confession time.
My dad just told my mom that he is moving out over the weekend, it's been coming for a while (at least a decade) they have had serious problems for at least ten years of their marriage. Now I don't want to get stuck in the middle, but i know i will be. My brother is key factor in many of their problems as he constantly pits them agaisnt each other (he has tried it with me and them as well). Now besides the stress of current family matters, I have been sick for about 2 and half months, went to the doctor for six different blood tests and x-rays some of the possible diagnosis are too scary for me to even think about... I have an appointment tomorrow to find out what it is. I had a panic attck last night because I suddenly was convinced I was terminally ill and could die, this has made me very anxious- i don't know how i'm going to sleep tonight. I'm worried sick but trying to keep my composure so as not to scare the family but I don't want to think of what tomorrow holds.
Well, let's take it one day at a time or at least one crisis at a time.
Right now, your goal is to get a good night's sleep tonight, or at least an adequate night's sleep. So, the usual things apply -- get exercise (but not right before you want to go to sleep, stop about an hour beforehand), eat a large meal (turkey is very good for this), have some warm milk, take a warm bath, read a book, watch a comforting movie, listen to soothing music. Or some combination thereof.
Right now, the thing is, concentrate on just the small task at hand -- making sure that you sleep. Everything else can and will wait.
PS Your health might be perfectly fine. Or it might not. Or it might be somewhere in between. The worst thing in the world that happened to me was when I learned my mother had cancer. I literally crumpled when I heard the news. But you know what? After a year of treatment, she seems to have beat the cancer, and has been healthy for over 2 1/2 years now. Even that bad nightmare came to a happy ending, though at the time, it didn't seem like it would. It was scary. But anyway, to get to the point, lots of good medical stuff is going on these days. I don't know your situation but of course I wish you all the best.
I'm going to try go to bed now and not have a panic attack, i just keep imagining the worst ones (lymphatic cancer, hiv or lupo) being the result tomorrow. Hopefully it's just a virus like rift valley virus or something that makes you run down and stays in your sytem for a good six months or my thyroid but if it's not then i suppose I literally wil die.
Oh man, tagged, you have so much going on at once.
Jes has some good advice.
Take care.
I hope you were able to get to sleep, taggedL.
Great advice from Jespah.
I hope you're getting some rest.
jes really did say it all, for now. take care.
yeah managed to rest, went to the doctor everything normal except for high ADT count which he said shouldn't be too much of concern but have to go back for more tests in three months time to make sure.
Good to hear that you're OK, tagged.
On the parents thing, mine split up when I was in my late teens, after several years of arguing.
I know this will sound funny, but I suddenly felt a wave of relief run through me at the time, and revelled in the peace and quiet at home.
We knew it was coming for some time, so it wasn't a shock.
The only thing I would say, is to try and avoid taking sides regarding their split. I failed to do this at the time, and years later, had quite a few regrets over the judgements that I made and things that I said when the split happened.
I hope everything works out OK for you.
Good to hear it, TaggedL.
Keep on taking care of yourself - and listen to the smart people like Lord E and Jes. They're pretty dang sensible.
Found this about normal ranges for medical tests:
http://encyclopedia.thefreedictionary.com/Reference%20ranges%20for%20common%20blood%20tests
What's ADT? Adenosine Triphosphate?
Hmm there are a few of us (myself included) with thyroids that don't work quite right. We manage.
PS Ellpus has an interesting insight, you might find that there's a certain sense of relief when you really think about it.
Oh, and thanks to all for your kind words.
thanks guys appreciate the support.
Forget what ADT stands for bu it basically does this- tests that measure antibodies in Blood (the body's immune response) can diagnose specific diseases such as hepatitis A, B, C or HIV/AIDS or verify the effectiveness of treatment. My capacity to resist disease, as well as immune disorders (lupus erythematosis and rheumatoid arthritis) can also be assessed.
Parents are well... seeming okay now but it's always like there is something seething beneath the ssurface and who knows what will happen at any minute.
Anyway was told to take it easy for a while ( it seems i had glandular fever and some micro-biotic infection recently as well no wonder i felt like crap)
Hey, grab a trashy novel or magazine or something equally mindless and head to bed. Oy, I worry.
thanks jespah, wish i could but got a friend/client coming over to discuss some desings for the flyer for his event.
okay well that's all over, was dragged out for a drink, now going to bed. phew what a day. (been up pretty much since last night as I couldn't sleep and now it's 00:56 am here
hey wanna post a picture here but dunno how?
figured it out thanks though you're a star... yeah feeling much better obrigada