very confused wrote:Sorry just forgot to say something.
I just feel like i have been living my life for someone else my whole life and never for me. I just feel like i want to live for me. But then i feel like an a@*hole for that.
It sounds like you have a lot on your plate at 23. I think your concern about yourself is worthy of attention and valid. Maybe you do need to spend some time and energy simply investing in You. There is nothing wrong with that. You can already see in your own life how a drained you=less than happy relationships. You matter and deserve your attention.
Right now you are married. You really do have 2 choices:
Work on the problem while staying in the marriage.
Or
Leave the marriage and work on the problem.
Consider both courses of action to yourself. Both present challenges.
Are you willing to allow your wife to support, love, and help you to figure it all out? Or do you see her as an obstacle in your way right now?
Good wishes to you.