ok so it isn't impossible for us to get our trust back it may take time but it's not impossible well i guess thats good Im gonna try and who knows mayb things will change and mayb they won't but lets just not give up hope yet I kno if we were in a relationship it wouldnt be a healthy one cuz we wouldnt have trust and we'd be angry and thats not what I want so right now a relationship with him is outtta the question but mayb someday it's possible but u never kno
A few items of note.
1) Punctuation and sentence structure would be appreciated. Your lower-case, non structured rambling is rather hard to decipher.
2) If this relationship is so rocky to begin with, do you really wish to continue it? Take a good, strong look at your reasons for wanting this thing to work out, then ask yourself if you really think it's worth the years of work that it will take to get to where you want to be with it.