I keep on getting flashbacks, every time i close my eyes, i can see things i dont want to see, things i can't look at anymore.
i dream these things and it wakes me up, i daren't even go to sleep any more
this is not what i want to remember and not how it should be
i cant even remember what my sweet nats face looked like
AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHH
how can you heal when your nightmare is right there in your face all the time?