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Why do these strange girls passionately hate me but fanatically love those nerdy boys?

 
 
Reply Fri 22 Nov, 2024 12:54 pm
Hello! I am a 36-year old depressed male. From the time I was born and when I was young, especially in middle-school and highschool, I often got into many sorts of trouble and broke many rules.

I often pick fights with a lot of people both weaklings and strong ones and both bad people and good people. I was a testosterone-filled tough guy.

I have to admit that I also serially bullied a few students in middle-school and highschool. The ones that I serially bullied were an emo guy, a deaf boy, and a cultural racial foreign boy who never assimilated one bit to American culture.

I was a very mean and selfish guy. I only cared about myself and never developed attachments towards any human being.

I have used and discarded a lot of people like they're just nothing but a bunch of objects to me.

This doesn't mean that I never had friends. In fact, I was very popular in middle-school, highschool, and college.

During middle-school and highschool, I was part of the popular kids. I had many people who defended me from others. I also had a lot of girlfriends but I cheated on all of them with many girls by having sex with other girls behind their backs.

I was also the captain of my highschool's gridiron football team. I was very good at gridiron football.

I did a lot of drugs and drank lots of alcohol in highschool and college and also had many casual sexual encounters during those times. As for the college part, that's because I was part of a college fraternity. I was living a Greek life at that time.

So yeah, I was a shitbag for most of my adolescent life. But many people still loved and feared me. This is why I have many friends, allies, and assistants who gleefully helped me in bullying my victims in highschool and middle-school. I even mobilized an entire highschool class in bullying one of my victims. He suffered so much depression because of that. No one was friends with my victims and everyone in the middle-school and the highschool that I attended became my enablers and my fanatical battalions of foot soldiers against my victims that they everyone hated. Everyone hated my victims because of me. I even turned the cousins and siblings of my victims into my soldiers against my victims. No wonder why my victims extremely hated their cousins and siblings far more than me during adulthood no matter how much their siblings and cousins apologized to them and want to go back to being family to them. I don't think my victims will ever forgive their cousins and siblings. It seems like it's very clear that my victims will take the vehement hatred that they have for their siblings and their cousins to their graves.

Yeah, I was a total piece of **** bastard. I turned families against each other. I turned friends against each other. I destroyed relationships. I perverted healthy social lives. I was the scum of the Earth.

But for some reason, people still like me even to the point of worshiping me as a god even though I was a scum. Also, I never raped any girl when I was a college frat boy but rumors that I did spread not just to the whole university but also to a whole town and almost a whole city county. Yet despite all these, many people still like and respect me and I still also scored a lot of chicks who are even willing to be my wives.

Due to this, I became even more arrogant when it comes to my bad boy behavior. I thought I was invincible and very important.

Even good girls liked and respected me. These good girls are devout conservative Christian girls who read the Bible often and always go to Church. Some of them became my girlfriends and also had sex with me despite knowing that I am an asshole.

And no, my friends and girlfriends didn't just include popular kids, cool kids, or assholes but also included a lot of normal ordinary “decent” people.

It made me think that everyone loves me and that I own the whole world.

That is until during my 20s, I met these strange types of girls in their 20s. They are different from most people I saw.

They're not shy, meek, or timid but they are often willingly quiet and willingly solitary. They don't hate the world to be honest but they are just happy to keep to themselves.

They are truly good individuals. They are also the smartest and the most rational human beings I have ever seen in my entire life. Most of them have STEM(Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics) college degrees and some of them even went to MIT and Caltech.

They are also fairly attractive.

I will categorize them into these three types:

1. Nerd girls

2. Library girls

3. Introvert girls

4. Overly rational girls

5. Individualistic girls

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When I met them, I was very arrogant of myself so I tried befriending and dating them as a bad boy while thinking to myself that I will cheat on them but they just mocked and avoided me like I am some kind of disease. Some of them even got physical against me. Even after I tried using the nice guy ways, these quiet girls still despised me and think that I am hopeless. They are very bigoted towards me.

I was shocked.

I was hurt. It almost destroyed my self-esteem. I was thinking that I was the king of the world only for these strange quiet females to bring me down to Earth and remind me that I am just another flawed vulnerable human being.

I can really tell that they despised me and have no respect for me to the very core. When I am near them, I feel like an impoverished worthless miserable outcast slave even though I am not really an outcast, a poor person, or a slave. At that time, I asked myself, “Is this what it feels to be bullied, rejected, and ostracized?” At that point, I realized the extreme damage that I inflicted on my victims that I bullied in middle-school and highschool.

When I was near them, these girls serially insulted and verbally humiliated me so much that it even made me physically hit them. When I hit them, they just laughed it off.

But what puzzled and shocked me even more is that whenever nerdy boys are around, these girls love and respect nerdy boys and even became the nerdy boys' faithful girlfriends and wives. The nerdy boys also had lots of sex with these strange quiet girls.

How is this possible? Aren't all women into assholes, players, and thugs? Aren't every single female into macho alpha males? Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls really hate me. I thought it was only me but they actually hate and avoid all alpha male brutes in general such as bullies, thugs, players, and gangsters.

I can really tell that Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls are the only true good girls that exist in this world. Why? Because I know people like them during middle-school and highschool. The ones that I know to be like them weren't bullied or ostracized during highschool and middle-school because they were able to masquerade as normal social people and again, they are also fairly attractive.

Yet despite all of these, all of the Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls that I saw in my whole life never engaged in bullying, doing drugs, drinking, casual sex, casual hook-ups, academic laziness, disrespectfulness, and enabling bullying.

I can also tell that nerdy boys’ long-term romantic platonic relationships with Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls tend to be the longest and most successful relationships I have ever seen in my whole life and also tend to be wholesome while most normal social people, most popular cool people, and most assholes that I see and know in their 20s cheat on each other, have extramarital affairs, divorce each other, fight their spouses, become single mothers, and become deadbeat dads.

All of the Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls that I know never cheated on or separated from their nerdy boys spouses.

Then I realized all of these things below:

As for ordinary normal girls, I found them to also not be good deep down. I am not talking about conservative Christian girls but just your average girl. They are not good because if they are, they wouldn't even be friends with me or enable my bullying ways. But these normal girls always supported my bullying ways. These girls also engaged in casual sex, casual hook-ups, doing drugs, academic failure, romantic cheating, bullying, drinking alcohol, and enabling and assisting my bullying ways. They laughed at and mocked my bullying victims.

Honestly, average girls and average males are no different from high school popular kids, cool kids, and assholes. Like high school popular kids, cool kids, and assholes, average people(males and females) in general are also just as obsessed with status and hierarchy and worship those who possess dark triad personality traits.

The only difference between the average person and a popular cool confident asshole is that the asshole has the balls to do the evil shits he or she does and admit to themselves that they are assholes themselves while the average person is a hypocrite who has no balls to do it and needs a crowd and an asshole leader to lead him or her into doing evil stuff. This is also why most of the people who participated in genocides all over the world and history are actually normal “decent” people and are not really thugs.

Also, the conservative Christian Church going “good” girls that dated, befriended, or know, are also not really good. They enabled and assisted my bullying ways. They laughed at my victims. They also engaged in casual sex, casual hook-ups, doing drugs, drinking alcohol, and academic failure after they finally separated from their strict Christian parents.

So yeah, I can say that Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls are really the only true good girls who exist in reality.

Then after that, I realized that the only reason why people worship and like me is not because I am a strong good person but only because I am an evil predatory piece of ****.

I realized that society worships and elevates narcissistic predatory individuals with dark triad personality traits. This is why most corporate elites and most politicians are psychopaths and sociopaths.

It's probably because deep down, we are just monkeys who evolved from older species of monkeys. Like all apes, all humans have this primal urge to associate with brutish evil savage ruthless predatory dumb males. Humans are animals deep down. Yes, I am an atheist. I don't believe in any god, any religion, or the supernatural.

I can't really say that I people loved me because they saw me as a strong good person. A proof of this is my time as the gridiron football captain of my former highschool's gridiron football team. Yes, I was the captain of that highschool sports team but I was not the best star footballer athlete of my highschool gridiron football team. It was another dude. To be honest, he is far more skilled than me. I was also scared of him because he was one of the few dudes who would fiercely stand up to me. He wasn't scared of me. He beat me up multiple times outside of school for harassing his little brother. I never intimidated him. But he wasn't an asshole like me. He was a good person. He never bullied anyone or enabled and assisted my bullying. I have never even seen him laugh at my victims. He had mostly a blank face with no interest in my bullying. He never engaged in doing drugs or alcohol. He was diligent when it came to school academics while I often failed my academic grades. He never cheated on his girlfriend. He also was never part of any group of popular kids. His social status is normal. He only had an average amount of friends compared to me who had legions of friends. He was also never friends with me knowing that I am a piece of **** who can negatively influence him. It's most likely because of his parents who were such a good influence on him while most American parents have no sense of responsibility towards their teen kids which is why most teens nowadays are easily swayed by and absorbed by bad crowds.

I realized that the only reason why people made me the highschool gridiron football captain was because I was a full-blown narcissistic asshole bully who loved to intimidate and control others so people think that I am the strongest dude around even though I am clearly not. The football captain should have been the star footballer. Not me. But he wasn't an asshole like me so people thought of him as not as less stronger than me.

Help me. I am depressed. It seems like people only love me for my status and my evil ways. It makes me feel less of a human.

I want to get some true love. I tried Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls but all of them just fanatically hate and avoid me and are too obsessed with nerdy boys.

Help. What should I do?.

Also, why do all of the Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls that I saw hate me and all alpha male bad boys but love nerdy boys? I know that I am an asshole but the hatred that those quiet females give me seems extremely too much.
 
jespah
 
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Reply Fri 22 Nov, 2024 01:46 pm
@Absolute412,
Maybe start by not referring to grown women as 'girls'. And then start treating people as individuals and not as a faceless, unchanging, homogenized monolith.

These women who are into STEM who you say are very intelligent? They see right through you. This is why none of them want to have anything to do with you, and I honestly do not blame them. After all, why would someone who knows better knowingly and voluntarily try to be with a 'shitbag'.

Your word for yourself, not mine.

This isn't bigotry, FFS. It's intelligent people who don't want anything to do with a user. People who have a preference to not be treated like crap aren't bigots. They're wise people who have better self-esteem than what you're used to.

If this depresses you, then congratulations. You might actually be on the road to developing empathy. But you've barely taken the first baby step. And if you're feeling really down, seek out therapy. Hell, I would suggest therapy anyway.

As for the rest of this post, it reads like incel fan fiction. But assuming even 1/10 of what you've written here is true, you're still proud of being an asshole. You may not realize that you're giving off that vibe, but I have no doubt that you are.

And these women are seeing the neon sign you're flashing and the red flags you're waving, and want nothing to do with you. If you want that to change, then you're going to have to be the one who does the changing.
Absolute412
 
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Reply Fri 22 Nov, 2024 02:37 pm
Also, all of the Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls I know cook for, clean for, and protect their nerdy boy spouses.

Also, all of the Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls I know are all virgins before they became the spouses of nerdy boys.
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Absolute412
 
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Reply Fri 22 Nov, 2024 02:40 pm
@jespah,
"As for the rest of this post, it reads like incel fan fiction."

What do you mean by this? Do you find it offensive? What do you mean by it being incel-like?
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Builder
 
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Reply Sat 23 Nov, 2024 01:24 am
@jespah,
Quote:
You might actually be on the road to developing empathy. But you've barely taken the first baby step. And if you're feeling really down, seek out therapy. Hell, I would suggest therapy anyway.You might actually be on the road to developing empathy. But you've barely taken the first baby step. And if you're feeling really down, seek out therapy. Hell, I would suggest therapy anyway.


Read that again lads. You're not on the same planet as people who respect others.
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Absolute412
 
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Reply Sat 23 Nov, 2024 10:23 am
@jespah,
Quote:
This isn't bigotry, FFS. It's intelligent people who don't want anything to do with a user. People who have a preference to not be treated like crap aren't bigots. They're wise people who have better self-esteem than what you're used to.


No! They hate me like I am Hitler or Ted Bundy. They don't even see me as a human being but as a pure evil creature from Hell who is not capable one bit of morality. They don't even see me as human or even give me a chance to just be an acquaintance. They have too much hate for me.

They also seem like to get an enjoyment out of intimately bonding with the nerdy boys in front of me as a way to viciously spite me because those quiet girls think deep down that I hate nerdy boys and that nerdy boys are complete opposites to me in a lot of things. It's another way for those quiet girls to say that they reject and shun alpha thugs like me.

You think they're just politely rejecting me? They always degrade me.
Absolute412
 
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Reply Sat 23 Nov, 2024 10:24 am
What the heck are you talking about? You're not me. You don't live my life. You have never been me.

What the heck do you know about those quiet girls?
jespah
 
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Reply Sat 23 Nov, 2024 11:15 am
@Absolute412,
Dude, they probably don't think of you enough to hate you. As for going after other guys "In front of you", are people supposed to develop relationships off in Timbuktu just on the off chance that you might be watching? Get over yourself. These women aren't doing this to you. They are living their lives.

They aren't thinking about you when they form new bonds with other men.

They probably aren't thinking about you at all.
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glitterbag
 
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Reply Sun 24 Nov, 2024 10:15 pm
@Absolute412,
I suspect they just find you repellent. Perhaps you think you've changed but reading your long winded explanation of what a lousy person you have been that's hard to hide from bright people.

Another point, those 'nerdy' boys might be great companions, interesting conversationalists and a lot of fun to be with. I would agree with Jespah, you should really get some counseling to moderate yourself. It's time to learn to acknowledge your positives and become closer to normal.

Last point, I seriously think you made all this up because you hope it will impress other people. It would be a great idea to never do this again, it doesn't make people feel concerned for you.
neptuneblue
 
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Reply Mon 25 Nov, 2024 04:59 am
@Absolute412,
Absolute412 wrote:
Help me. I am depressed. It seems like people only love me for my status and my evil ways. It makes me feel less of a human.


It seems to me that you want a quick, simple answer that makes the most sense and magically makes you happy and a better person.

Ok, a one word answer.

Atonement.

So your long winded and extremely adjective-filled diatribe didn't go as planned for you. Yes, you took the time to cohesively write an essay and kudos for that.

The problem? You don't believe it. You don't believe none of it. I'm not saying you're lying - oh no - that's too easy.

You don't feel anything. Nothing. Nada. Zip. You couldn't, you can't, if what you typed is completely true and unbiased.

So you want help. My arm-chair analysis?

No you don't.

You want a quick way to say to yourself you're loveable.

Because you're not. Not right now anyway.

You've talked about your narcissistic ways, drug and alcohol abuse, even go as far as admitting to sexual abuse.

And not once have you mentioned how your behavior affected others. No mention of remorse, no thank you's to people who have helped you learn, grow, mature.

Nope, Still all about you.

Until that changes, leave ANY type of "girls" alone.

You really want help? Atone for your mistakes.
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Machpa14
 
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Reply Sun 1 Dec, 2024 09:23 pm
@jespah,
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As for the rest of this post, it reads like incel fan fiction.


Although I do think that it is indeed bullshit fantasy that those Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls went for and go for nerd boys, you seem to be one dumbass who's making contradictions here.

Really? “Incel fanfic”? 🤣🤣🤣🤣

First of all, you incel haters hate it when incels say that all women go for asshole bully males yet here you are calling his post as an incel fanfic because you think that it's disgusting that Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls for once went for nerd boys and also for once brutally rejected this alpha male thug jock bully here. You want all females including Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls to worship and go for violent abusive alpha male bullies.

Second of all, you incel haters hate it when incels say that all women worship asshole abusive narcissistic males but here you are calling his post as an incel fanfic because you think that it's incel-like and disgusting if a male wants Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls. You think that the post's creator is an incel masquerading as an alpha male jock bully just because you think he likes Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls instead normal girls(they tend to be promiscuous and slutty), bad girls, and popular cool girls. You think that bad girls and slutty girls are the only ones that should be chosen and wanted by males yet you hate it when some males like Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls. Hypocritical, are you? 🤣🤣🤣

Yes, all females indeed worship and choose asshole male narcissistic sociopathic bullies who abuse others and cheat on their girlfriends and wives while all females hate and reject all good males. That's a fact you can't make me not believe in. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
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Machpa14
 
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Reply Sun 1 Dec, 2024 09:25 pm
@jespah,
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As for the rest of this post, it reads like incel fan fiction.


Also, what's with the words “incel fanfic”? You know what you're doing? You're a bully! You're quite rich for attacking the OP as a toxic incel yet you yourself are engaging in bullying yourself. Please, give it up! Everyone knows the type of people you really are. What you're doing is engaging in Cringe Culture. It's obvious that the people who make fun of incels are the same people who make fun of weeaboos, nerds, mall ninjas, geeks, furries, neckbeards, and autistics. What do all of those people have in common with incels? They are all or are all perceived to be shy socially-awkward eccentric introverts or people with Autism or Aspergers.

To be honest, the derogatory terms neckbeards, incels, and weeaboos are the current successors to society's hatred of those once called as “nerds" and “geeks” in the old eras before society claimed the words "nerds” and “geeks” as badges of honor after being nerdy and geeky became cool. Being called nerds and geeks is now cool. Now people call real nerds and authentic geeks they hate as neckbeards, incels, and weeaboos. You're disgusting.

Also, many of those neckbeards, incels, and weeaboos have Aspergers and Autism which also makes you an ableist.

You're a bully yourself. You probably also bully and make fun of autistic people like Christian Weston Chandler. What you're doing here is engaging in Cringe Culture or more specifically CYBERBULLYING.

Also, really? You're making fun of fanfictions? What's wrong with fanfictions? How low can you even get to attack such harmless hobbies? Why? Is it because they are amateurs? Sir, it isn't just fanfiction creators! Many people also engage in amateurism when it comes to their hobbies such as those whose hobbies are sports, playing musical instruments, writing songs, painting, etc.

Really, you're just a cyberbully.
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Absolute412
 
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Reply Sun 1 Dec, 2024 09:36 pm
@glitterbag,
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Another point, those 'nerdy' boys might be great companions, interesting conversationalists and a lot of fun to be with.


Why did you put a quote on quote on the word "nerdy"? I mean they are really LITERAL nerds. I swear. I am not making **** up.
Machpa14
 
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Reply Sun 1 Dec, 2024 09:47 pm
@Absolute412,
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Why did you put a quote on quote on the word "nerdy"? I mean they are really LITERAL nerds. I swear. I am not making **** up.



HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Because he doesn't like it when real socially-awkward loner introverted weirdo eccentric nerds get girls especially high quality girls like Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls. He wants all girls including Nerd girls, Library girls, Introvert girls, Overly rational girls, and Individualistic girls to chase after and worship sociopathic thug bad boys and top high value males yet he hates it when incels say facts that all females worship all thugs and all top high quality males. Notice how he said that those quote on quote nerds are interesting conversationalists. In his mind, they're clearly not real nerds but top high-value suave alpha male highschool football captain prom king ladies men because real nerds are socially-awkward and tend to be inept at social communication. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! In short, he's a hypocrite. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

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