hello

hi michelle, i am a husband and i didnt only felt like my marriage was boring and sex was dead but i actually went out and find me other hunnys,and party to bring exitement.. and i will tell you this.. i regret every single second i did it, it brought nothing but destruction and pain...ive been married over 7 years and last night we went to a casino without the kids and i was allready saying in my mind.. man ! all we do is go to the same dumb casino this is so boring!!!, we went and i ask a guy for a restaurant and inside even without me knowing he took us in and they had a beautifull candlelight little romantic restaurant,,,, it cost us like $50 bux but i had my big old stake and my wife had her salad full of giant shrimps..and we had a fun time like the old days i dropped my fork , we laugh,then we play casino a little...it was all nice and new to us..

the only dificultt times we go thru is because of the fact of all the things i did to her that still brings pain..

when i was sitting there i look at her and then knew the bill could go high (which didnt really even happen) but i said this girl deserves much more than this.. and i felt sad and happy..

what helps me tremendously is my faith, knowing god gave me a wife and thats the end of it, not for me to like her or not , but to thank him for giving her to me, we still fight and stuff but nothing like before..

let me tell you this outta my own experience... that feeling you know of boredom and frustration...

its nothing to the feeling you get when you see your partners eyes when you confess you have cheated on them, and the miserable months that follow,and worst of all even risk loosing your children...

If you're a nurse you know how important professional help is. Could you meet with a marriage counselor and later on perhaps include your hubby?
It's hard to go along on your own wondering if things are normal.
I can tell you that your disinterest in sex is a red flag in my opinion. That in itself warrants an appointment.