Ex Reappears, and I Wish He Wouldn't Have......

I met him in February; he was handsome, soft-spoken, charming...and also cruel and aloof. After three months of dating, he one day told me I had better look for love elsewhere because he felt I had no "sexual energy" and he preferred a woman who was a "lady on the streets, but a whore in the bedroom."

There were a lot of other hurtful things said--the entire time I was with him, he critisized everything I did, said...critisized how I cooked, how I decorated my home, how I thoiught, how I believed, how I looked, etc.....

I am brief here because I there are too many things to write....

Just this month, out of the blue, he called and asked if I could bring back the books he allowed me to borrow (as long as I didn't crease the spines). I said "okay"...I hadn't ever wanted to see him again, so I put off the book return as long as possible.

Unfortunately, he stopped by to pick up the books, then started talking about a project he was working on, and before I knew it, hours had passed and I was still listening to him. He seemd so excited to talk to someone...he asked if I could watch a movie with him sometime, and I said perhaps.

Knowing myself, I realised I wouldn't be able to say "no" when he asked to watch the movie. Sure enough, this week he asked to visit with me. I absolutely didn't want to, but somehow, I felt like I hsould. I thought I would just go over for a bit and get it out of the way.

I don't know why I have such a hard time saying "no".....i wish I had, though, because he was putting his arms around me saying things like "It sure is nice to hold you" "You have such lovely skin" "You should come over more often" As he did in the past, he began talking about future plans, using a lot of "We should do this...." That's how I got suckered in in the first damn place.

Anyway, he kissed me, and I felt absolutely nothing. I hated every second of it, but I didn't know how to pull away....I know it sounds dumb..Why should I care about hurting him? Yet, I sitill always protect others more than I do myself.

How do I tell him I just can't be romantic with him anymore? How do I, in the kindest way possible, tell him I cannot be involved anymore?

HIs cruelty seriously hurt my soul....He treated me in the worst way possible.....And I cannot ever relive that again.

I have no idea why he would even want to talk to me, after all the cold things he said.

So can anyone help me know how to handle this?

I just need to be alone, heal my life, not have any more turmoil. This year has been far too traumatic to add anything else to the mix.