Sex W/0 love and vice versa

I want to be loved, DO YOU?
Having lived wide and long, I learned this about myself: I want to be LOVED -- not toyed with, not abused, not forced or cajoled into a sex act for the gratification of the forcer OR myself!!
I want no part of a relationship wherein the other half is USING me to gratify themselves, then happily trotting off (in mind, body or spirit or all three) to his own life and interests- uncaring of my day, my cares, my pain or my joys.

Sex without love is bleak and half-hearted. Often it is a desperate act, where one is suffering mental arousal and/or has no alternatives- so grabs the first a.. they can seduce.

One of the most heinous acts that takes place in this world, is when one person falls in love - and really lets the OBJECT of their affection know how MUCH they love them, and the beloved person TAKES ADVANTAGE of that love. Using them for sex and discarding them like so much garbage.

I suppose there are people in this world who grab on each other for the benefit of sexual gratification, nothing else... and walk away as if it were nothing. I just cannot be like that. I cannot BE aroused, in my spirit (which must be desirous first, before my body will respond) by someone who just wants a sexual interlude.

Tying someone DOWN, torturing them- even subtly, over and over and over, until they are physically aroused- merely by the nature of a healthy body; then using them and laughing at them, and abusing them anally to humiliate them???? "....it will be better for them if they have a millstone tied about their neck and they are drowned in the depths of the sea."