@bulmabriefs144,
Welp, it's been a couple weeks, and here's an update.
My sister did not toss me out in the cold. We spent the night, masks or no masks, and everyone lived.
We drove to one hotel on the way. They had a big unfriendly (you're supposed to be the hospitality business for chrissake) sign telling us that people who didn't wear a mask would be asked to leave. But we were checked in, paid money, and such, so in the three hotels (one there, two back) we eventually stayed at none of them walked up to me and told me to leave. I was there because I had to sleep, I didn't want to make trouble, but I had to stand up for what I felt was right or lose the right to stay there. All the same, I was prepared with blankets and such if thet did tell me that despite us paying money, I wasn't welcome (that's theft btw). We gutted it out, and made it to Texas. At Texas, for the most part we stayed in so it wasn't a problem. Then they wanted to go to a restaurant. I stayed in the car. My dad eventually joined me after he had one too many nags from his wife about wearing them on the way to the restaurant. But I did eventually have to pee (we both did), and lacking any outdoor facilities, it was a choice between maybe being arrested for entering with no mask, and definitely being arrested for urinating/defecating like an animal. A few days later, they took us to an outdoor restaurant (why?) but told me to wear a mask in order to enter, even though I was outdoors and would take one off to eat. I refused and he got all mad but I just shrugged it off and walked about two feet to sit down at a table where everyone took their mask off anyway.
This is what this has been like. Had I followed rules completely, I would be denied the right to a bathroom, a hotel, and to eat with my family. But neither have I been pushing any envelopes. It's just that I expect nothing, not good hygiene, not any kind of medicine, not masks, not vaccines to be enough to get rid of this thing. Because this is really about fear. I'm afraid, you're afraid. But I understand that nothing I do will be enough, and that I can expect only to be forced into a corner. Cases rise near holidays and elections, and would do so, even idf I obeyed all rules (other people wouldn't). We might get sick, we might even die. But right now, I can't think death would be worse. And they're cancelling church services in my state. Foe Christmas Eve.