Piffka wrote:- Doesn't seem to experience it so much as observe it. Makes me sad.
That's quite deep. And it's true, I suppose. <nods>
Otherwise - cmon folks, you people are slacking on the negatives. "We are not worthy" - come on. I
know that I can be exasperating. It's just that I usually
think I'm exasperating in things that people tend to turn out not to give a damn about -- and then, apparently, I am exasperating in ways that I just dont get, leading to people sometimes totally turning off from me and I dont know what I did. That in turn is exasperating to me - the whole, "whatdido, whatdido?" thing.
Apparently I'm not in control of the impression I make. I'll feel great - and nobody even deigns me a look (like last night, grumble). I feel boring or ordinary - and people are real nice. Just arbitrary, it seems. Relationships are different (with their own volatilities - bring on the minuses for "sensitive"), I'm just talking casual acquaintances now, strangers and people you occasionally meet. Like you folks, kinda.
(Of course I know that even your impressions wouldnt solve it all, since I'm obviously different here than irl - I tend to be a lot more agressive here for example, in Politics that is, than I'd ever be irl. But thats a whole different can of worms altogether again.)