any advice needed xx

hey feeling down at the moment... most of you probably wouldn't be able to remember the first time going out with someone... well, my boyfriend.. well ex now i think told me hes not sure why but he wants to break up, well he didnt say that but thats what he ment, and i havent stopped crying since. He did say that he thought i loved him more than he loved me, i dont know if i scared him off, but i felt sooo sad afterwards. He was my first boyfriend ever and i completely felt destroyed. I talked to a friend on the phone she helped me feel so much better, shes my only other close friend thats been out with someone so i thought she was the best person to talk to. However my other friends, im quite nervous about telling because im not sure about their reaction and also i would feel incredibly embarrassed and sad. I know they would say "i told you so" because they wasn't sure about him in the first place, but i think they were just mucking around. School tomorrow and i have the huge worry of friends saying "so hows things going with jay" i feel like i could burst out crying right in front of them. I feel so sad, and as well as this jay and i are meeting after school on wednesday, what do i say? what do i do? maybe he will finally decide if he wants to break up with me... i am so sad... feel like theres something wrong with my personality... i didnt feel like i had been myself with him yet anyway, my normal jokey non stop talking self hehe maybe i will try and be my complete self on wednesday... i have so many emotions i have never felt before... i feel like a kid, but i feel like maybe i was to grownup with him, and thats why i wish i had the chance to be my complete happy talkative self so he could see the real me... i could burst out crying now any advice for tomorrow, wednesday... and the rest of my life hehe thanks everyone, it would help me so much xx