Look man, I know how you feel. Most people know how you feel, it just seems like nothing is goin' your way and the depression just rips you apart inside. I'm not gonna tell you to "tuff it out" or "it will pass" because thats not what you want to hear and it wont help. I use drugs and alcohol to numb my depression, but I don't reccomend it to others, because it is self-destructive. What you need is a hobby. Not just a hobby, but something you love to do (besides girls) that ur passionate about. Fill the void in your life with that, and it becomes your outlet for your depression, anger, hatred, fears whatever. Surround yourself with others that share the same interest be it cars, bikes, motorcycles, snowboarding, skating, rockclimbing, hunting, music..... Life begins to take on a whole new meaning. But thats just my opinion.