Getting over him...

Okay so I dated this guy for about a year and a half. He was my first love and I loved and still love him so much. We met in high school and had a really great, really serious relationship. We both really wanted to spend the rest of our lives together, I know that may sound silly to some of you, but it was really great. About a week before he broke up with me, we were fighting often and he was a little distant. We both really suffocated eachother in our relationship and we had both lost our freedom. It was okay at first, but he began to feel restless. About two weeks before I left for college (i'm a freshmen in college and he's a senior at my old high school), he broke up with me. He said that he loved me and was in love with me and wanted to be free. We were pretty much together for those two weeks before I left. He moved me into my dorm and everything was perfect. Well one night on the phone, he was telling me that he loved me and that we're soulmates...long story short, six months later, I haven't heard from him again. He has a new girlfriend who is...well not a very nice girl who has a very...bad reputation as being a druggie and well...kind of slutty. My ex has now turned to drugs which is sad because he was the least druggie person ever.

He tells everyone the reason he stopped talking to me is because he knew this was a phase he needed right now and he didn't want to drag me down with him. He's been with this girl for around 4 months and he has never told her or anyone else that he loves her, though she tells him all the time. He tells everyone that he's embarrased by the way she dresses and acts and he know that shes just a girlfriend. He is a senior in high school and now he says if after his freshmen year of college, if their still together, they are moving in together.

It's been six months and i'm still very much in love with him. I've had a couple of relationships but i've messed them all up. I talk about him a lot or do things so they'll break up with me. I don't want to be with anyone but my ex. I don't think i'll ever be happy until we're back together.

I don't know what to do anymore. I love him so much still. I don't care that he's a completely different person now, it doesn't matter to me.

My mom and all of my best friends who knew us together think we'll get back together when he's done this phase, but I just have to be patient and wait, and they really do think we're meant to be. These are people who don't say things just because they want you to feel better, they are honest about things like this...brutally honest at times. Especially my mom.

I just need to know how to survive until then. Everyone told me, "Give it time." But I have and it still hurts so much. I think about him everyday. I want to enjoy college and my life. I don't know for sure if we will ever be togehter again and if we are going to be, I have no clue how long it could be. Maybe years...I can't feel like this for years. I want to be able to have relationships. Either no guys will date me or when they do, they are intimidated by my ex, and leave. My mom says I pretty much have, "I'm in love with someone." all over me.

Please help me to enjoy my life and survive....I don't want to do this forever.