My Baby Dog

But I know you've been thinking, seriously considering when would be the "right time" for quite a while now, k. So I know that if this is what you've decided that you'll be doing the right thing. When faced with similar heart-wrenching decision in the past myself, I've always felt a relieved, after, that I didn't wait till the poor critter was really suffering. My biggest regrets have been in the few cases when I waited too long, or lacked the courage to do what I knew I had to do soon enough. It's tough, isn't it? Trying to do the right thing when you know you're going to miss that beloved creature so much? And that right till the end that this creature will trust you totally. It's a big responsibility. My hear goes out to you, k. I wish I could be there to hold your hand after this.

Oy. I wish I could be there with you and Boots.

Not because I want any of this to happen ever, but because you're both good friends. I'll go and watch a sunrise by the lake with the local canines and send a thought to Boots - she was a good sunrise companion for me.

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I'm sure it's confusing, since the loss of muscles/nerves doesn't hurt as much as some things. Not sure we're all so right on just this next week.
But, worse is worse.
Love to you both, however you handle it.

The mobile vet will come monday morning. At the same time as I am supposed to be meeting career councilor to build my resume. Which is something I've waited too long to do. Bugger.

My cousin's husband will do it in NH in an orchard behind his practice, but that entails a 2 hour car ride. And he didn't sound too enthused - it was his wife's idea. He did suggest having my vet do it right in my car. Boots is pretty happy in the car.

Luckily, my mother said she'd come up from the cape to drive me wherever I need driving to (and from).

I tend to mourn alone, I always have. I prefer it that way. But the driving thing is sticky. I left the most pathetic message at my vet's voicemail. She'll call back tomorrow. For some reason I was way more emotional cvalling my vet than calling my mom. I guess I have way more stored emotion with the vet.

I wish I had a personal assistant who could call vets for me.

No chance of a brief postponement of your meeting, k? I'm sure your career counsellor would understand if you explained the circumstances. I have a strong feeling that you might feel better if it's at home. You're trying to do so much important stuff at the one time, you poor thing.

MsOlga - yeah, that was what one mini-crisis was about - you mean I have to decide between my dog life and my career's future?

Nope. You need to decide which situation will cause you the least anxiety, pain & regret.

Well, hell, if the career counsellor doesn't understand this situation, it's the wrong counsellor.

Osso - perhaps you're right.....

Another option on the table is doing this at a my parent's vet on cape cod. There is a lovely property with bunnies and shady trees. Mom's checking into it. I think I like this option the best. Even if it is more expensive.

Which situation would Bootsie be most at ease in, k?
Which would be the least difficult for you to cope with?

She might feel protective of me and the property if a vet came here (especially one she doesn't know). And I'd feel at ease here, but alone (and with new hosuemate). She feels anxious when we go to the vet, I think she would even in the parking lot. I would be sad at every return to the vet for months. I think the cape works best. She would be interested, but not suspecting themometers up her butt or shots to her scruff (maybe). It really is one of the most pleasant properties I know of. I don't have to return. It's close to my parents' house and I can recuperate with family when it's over (and leave when I need to). I can go one walks, I will be force fed healthy meals, etc. I am hoping this will work out. She has been to the vet once before for a possible lyme tick bite. so she has a record.

That sounds good, littlek. A lot of elements seem to line up well with that one.

Yes, I agree with soz, k.
Sounds the least disressing option for both of you.

Yeh.

I meant to say it sounded like the least distressing option, k. (My spelling is sloppy today, sorry.)
It is not going to be an easy weekend for you.
I'll be thinking of you, k.

Thanks again to all of you.

Thinking of you both. The Cape sounds like a good option.

I read up on the last few pages this morning, before I headed to face 120 students, and just didn't know what to say. I wish I could be home to well, I don't know. I could hardly think about anything else today. I wish I could help or do something. And say goodbye, but Ican't even write about that now, I'm surrounded by students. But my thoughts are at home.

Not just months, Lil K. Using another vet was my choice, too, for the same reason. She operated her own cremation services, too, which I now know eliminated what would have been the equally traumatic experience of transporting my dog afterward. Even if the Cape Cod vet doesn't have his own crematory, I'm sure he has an agreement with one who will transport and return the ashes.