Should I end my relationship with my boyfriend?

So my sweetheart and I have been as one for a little more than a year now, we met in his home country when I was living there. He was back from studying on holiday. We've gone on loads of outings together, for example, a holiday with him for 9 weeks, going on an occasion with his family for 2 weeks, him going to my home country for a month and other little excursions. A while prior we had an issue, when we initially met, he didn't have much sexual experience and was fixated on porn. Would download MANY recordings, so subsequently he couldn't (you know). I looked further into it and inquired as to whether he utilized porn, he said he did yet didn't think it was an issue.

At any rate I discovered that while we had that issue, he was downloading porn and it caused an enormous contention. I inquired as to whether he could stroke off to me and he's just let me know once that he really ejaculated to some photographs of me. He also mentioned he didn’t have any videos of me which he would like. At that time, I wasn’t so confident with sending provocative material. So now he's told me he’s fundamentally quit jerking off all together which isn't what I have an issue with. It’s just what to, bothers me and the fact he would lie.

Over a month prior he was back home doing some work understanding and I was in mine, since he was at home with his rents and I live at home too, it's clearly difficult to do skype sex or even telephone sex particularly if there's family on the ground floor. I conveyed this up to him that I felt like he was specifying anything sexual related, less and less. He said it’s because his parents are around and so are mine so the circumstance might be clumsy. Also, him and his parents moved house and they were sharing a bed for some time so I think there was no time to masturbate anyway. However, he will fundamentally never message me anything sexual related, unquestionably kissy faces and so on yet that is about it. I'm not asking this in a way that I'm untrustworthy of him, I mean he calls me for quite a long time amid his day that he's free and returns home and we message throughout the day. However, it's since I'm not understanding that satisfied and it feels like we simply call to talk about our days/whatever else that is going on, I'm not getting that love/tricky sensitive that we as a whole need. I think I quickly mentioned this to him once when he was back home.


He's backpedaled to where he’s studying, he's been back for quite a long time. He's either in his dorm, playing frizz or calling me. I brought the topic up once more. I inquired as to whether he's jerked off as of late and he said he no. At that point he went ahead to state that occasionally he will rub himself to a photograph of me. Which at that point to some degree influenced me to think - I think you are stroking off. Which is fine, yet what precisely to, is another inquiry. He was then similar to "I do consider you sexually and our great circumstances together" and he said he would love to do skype/phone sex with me but is worried since I’m still at home. He also said that he does mention sexual related comments, for e.g if I send him a photo of my legs, he will mention that they’re sexy.

Then the next day or so, I thought to myself, maybe I should send him something revealing. I messaged him saying I took a video and would send it to him the next day as he was in a lecture and didn’t want anyone to accidentally see. He didn’t message me the next day asking about it. It may have been that night on the phone, I said “Oh I forgot to send you the video” to simply see his reaction and he said “Oh yeah baby” then quickly changed the subject to what his parents were eating for dinner that night as he apparently received messages. Barely any days past, I said the same. At that point I really revealed to him that he disregarded the video. I said "You forgot about the video I was going to send you” and he basically said how busy he was, having to do a tutorial, then he had frissbee. At that point he resembled "It upsets me that you believe I'm less sexually pulled in to you" "That is what you're inferring" “You know how horny I am around you” and got quite angry. I just disclosed to him that he didn't appear to be excessively excited about it, when it appears that most girlfriends/boyfriends would be so enthusiastic to see those kind of videos. As mentioned before, I never have sent him anything that provocative so you would think he would even more happy about seeing it. Quite a few night have passed now, you would think that because I’ve brought it up quite a few times and clearly a bit upset about it, that he would try and sound more enthusiastic about wanting to see it. If the tables had turned, I'd attempt and show as much enthusiasm for the video particularly so he would feel valued. The other night we got into a big argument and we didn’t text at all yesterday. It was over something stupid that I said I didn’t like Russians and he was questioning me. He has argued with me over political things before too. One night he told me to stay ignorant (even though I watch the news every day) because I didn’t want to speak about North Korea. The next day, we didn’t talk that much. The next, not a lot and then we started swearing at each other over text. We usually call every day so we didn’t call that night and then yesterday, we haven’t spoke and tonight we haven’t either. For anyone interested about the exact texts, here they are. What is horrible is that because I used to model, I was signed to an agency he believes it’s equivalent to escorting. Sad.
Him : Fine, well on my part, I have not changed me loving you, and yes we did argue over sth pretty dumb, but almost everything I do honestly is related to keeping us together. So if you can't be bothered anymore, then that's on you. I know and am sure that I love you, and that I choose to be with you, I am sticking with that. It's up to you how you want this to play out.

Me: Well it’s not exactly up to me at all, when you have the whole world looking at you (me) and I know for a fact that most men would be over the moon if I initiated anything sexual or wanted to send them something provocative. Sorry but we both know one is punching well above ones weight. I cant tell you how **** that feels, even the fact I can’t go home and see my boyfriend or even go camping, do something casual. I mean come on and then when you argue with me over something like Russians? Just like that North Korea thing. Like who gives a **** really about communist Russia. Then you gotta ask me some dumb question like we’ve never met. You got me fucked up with that. Most people don’t like the country so my opinion isn’t unusual. It’s like you want to argue with your girlfriend so bad just because you have some odd fascination for Russia, bit like those desperate dudes on the web that are looking for Russian wives – that’s how lame it reminds me of. Plus like you’re on the other side of the planet to me, probably going to be studying more if you don’t get a job immediately so that’s more years added on to our “plans” we have. Lets say I see you in December, when do I see you next? All these very valid questions. I guess time will only tell. Idk man, I’m just so young and sometimes this feels like I’m setting myself up for a failure even though I quite clearly love you a lot.

Him Wow. And you don't think I have a ton of questions on my end? I've been stressing over getting my life straight so as to be with you and figure out a way to help us be together within a decent time frame ever since the summer and you have no idea how much stress is attributed to trying to make us work. I don't have an odd fascination for Russians in that manner if that's what you're insinuating; the fact that you can even think that of me is pretty low. I have Russian friends and I studied the goddamn language for 2 years; (PS I cannot think of one Russian friend he has, and he barely knows how to conversate) I have been there before and seen firsthand; I just don't like when anyone makes big généralisations about people, it's not nice because I have been a subject of discrimination based on my fcking skin Colour my whole life. Yes I'm obviously pretty damn excited when you said you wanted to send me sth provocative but I'm sorry, I also have a busy life as well especially on that day and people can forget. Also, you yourself forgot about it over the weekend. I guess I can only say I'm sorry for not having the thought of your provocative video occupy my whole brain the whole day. The fact that you keep bringing up this stupid idea that I'm punching above my own weight with you is really pathetic and really doesn't show at all whether you love someone at all. Since I'm so beneath you, then go find someone else ffs. I'm tired of hearing that ****. I'm going to school now and I have training straight after, so I'm sorry I don't want to intentionally ignore you so I think I need my space for the rest of the day. Besides it's night time for you anyway and you have class tomorrow. Goodnight.

Me: You you don’t just forget about that ****. You used to ask me to send you videos a while ago so you (generalized) would think you would be really ecstatic to hear that I’m finally willing. One night I said “Oh I forgot to send you that video” to see your reaction and you were like “Oh yeah, oh my parents are having this for dinner” like really? This was after the night where you were busy. This is also when I know your talking **** is because for months, you have never mentioned anything sexual related. Honestly probably after I left the UK is when I noticed you rarely doing it. Also this makes me realize you’re probably jacking away to porn, I mean why wouldn’t you lie to me about this if you’ve done it previously? It’s not like your morals have changed. So you’ve lost interest as a result. All I can say is **** your porn, you fucked yourself real hard. I’ll give you everything you want and leave you and you can be left behind to touch yourself to porn. I mean, that’s what you want right. And don’t ever talk to me like I’m an idiot, for one, I’ve seen screenshots of Russian escort ads in London months ago (yes it wasn’t when we knew each other) but still, you then hired 2 other escorts (me being on with some Russian background).

Him: Why did I even bother try to stop masturbating just to better myself sexuallly for you?? Wtf man. When you said you forgot to send me that video, I didn't even realise that you were speaking of that video in the first place.
I thought it was sth else. Since you think so ******* lowly of me then don’t bother anymore. Yea I have ss some photos of Russian escorts before I met you so what? Does it mean that I can't like their culture or language? Or that I don't think anyone should généralisé to the extent that you were general using about groups of people? Seriously **** this, go on and keep thinking I'm the same wanker that I was before. Have a good ******* sleep. Also, you just told me a week ago that you watched porn to touch yourself, talk about hypocrisy. Since you want someone who's so ******* over you sexually all the goddamn time, then go be an escort again; I'm sorry I can't give you the amount of sexual attention that you so clearly deserve, even when we are in a goddamn long distance relationship. And for the ******* record, you started to be ******* mean and thus I'm responding this way. I have already been done with porn and right now, I'm really ******* done with this ****.

This is when we started to get angrier and angrier with each other.

Me: YEAH and do you know why? Because my so called boyfriend doesn’t mention anything sexually related and seems to not even be interested.. How else do you think a hot girl is going to get satisfied? You’re ******* lucky I wouldn’t do something like most Russians girls would be, cheating. Because you know, they’re all sluts. If you haven’t noticed. If you like that shallow culture, go ahead. Yeah but do I downloads obsence amounts of porn to the extent I can’t cum with you, then lie why I cant so it makes you feel even shittier. I have broken my ******* back for you in regards to always making sure you’re sexually pleased and even helped you overcome whatever the hell you had and you cant even show some interest when we’re apart. Then have you found all these weird ass videos on my laptop? Nah. Do I have screenshots of some ******* manky male sluts on my phone? Nah. Do I then never mention anything remotely sexual because I believe our relationship is just about talking about each others day? If anything, you would think that I’d be the one downloading heaps of porn so I can at least see some hot guy because my boyfriend is having issues and can’t even satisfy me sexually when we’re apart (not exactly talking about in person). You’re too ******* lucky is all I can say.

Him : Seriously **** this. **** porn and **** this. You can believe whatever you want to believe. Whatever. Can't be fucked honestly. Good luck with your dentistry.

Now we have had really bad arguments like this before over text and in person. But this one feels more real. I stopped replying to him on Thursday, he reached out to me last night and said “So is this it then?”