Hi. My name is Robin and I need someone to talk to about my marriage.
I am considering leaving my husband of 17 years. For the past 2 years or so, I have not been happy at all. I will try to explain as best I can, however I am not very good with words. Please excuse the language in some areas, I have bleeped out most of it...
About 10 years ago he cheated on me. He has yet to admit it, but we all know it's true. He "suddenly" decided he did not love me anymore. He left me and Steven(our son, who was 5 at the time) on top of a mountain with no food or money or phone and no way to go anywhere. He was too busy with his new bit** to even take me to the grocery store. I am not exaggerating here. He actually came to pick me up to take me to the store one time and half way there I said if you don't want to do this then don't...he did a U turn in the middle of the street and was taking me back home so fast my head was spinning!! I remember one time standing on the side of the road with him and crying and begging him to at least tell me why and he had sunglasses on, I guess to hide is guilty face, and I reached up to move them so he could LOOK ME IN THE EYES and he jerked away and said "Don't you f***in' touch me!" in a tone like he was chatting about the weather.
So anyway, now that I sit here thinking of leaving, I can't help but go back to that day and the casual way he dumped us and wonder why it's so hard for me to leave.
The problems in our marriage are for one, the cheating. He has not done it again (that I know of) but he never admitted that he was. That has always hurt me. And the fact that he has a twin brother that is here ALL THE TIME. For the past 3 years, this man has come over here every single day. Spent the whole entire day here watching TV and (btw, they both "dip" snuff) making awful spitting and hocking noises. Hes disgusting! He doesn't lift the seat when he pees, and then pees all over the damn floor in the bathroom. I have said something to my husband about this and he keeps blowing me off. I guess his brother is more important in his life. There is more to the story, but this post is already too long
I have already talked to my brother, who lives in Va, and he said I could come stay with him. Now this would be about 900 miles away, as I live in TN right now.
If anyone out there can help, or maybe just someone to talk to, please reply.....as I am at my wit's end! LOL!
Thanks,
Robin