Does he love me

Ok so I been with my boyfriend going on 5 years. He gets ask. I've had jobs here and there but nothing ever lasts more than 3 months. I also have a side hustle (trick). In other words, I have another man that gives me money continuously over the past 8 years. Although, my side hustle wasn't always my side hustle. It's basically been a full time job the past 3 years. I make about 1800 in a month if I slack, but if I don't then it's about 3000. My boyfriend was actually the one who told me to start getting money from this man.
At first I was kinda shy but then it became so easy. Now I wake up and get ready like i really have a 9-5 job. The thing is I feel like I keep getting money from this man yet I have 0$ saved. I'm making more than alot of people I know, yet I have nothing to show. I remember my boyfriend once saying, its easier for u to go get money from him, then me risking my life, or freedom...i don't want to go to jail. And it made me feel like, well yea ur right I don't want u in jail. But at the same time, how does he feel as a man?? How does he feel about me spending so much time with another man everyday for money.?? Does he even really love me? And if he does, how can he let me do this for so long?? I feel so dumb. But I love him. I mean my boyfriend pays my rent and helps me out alot with MY 2 kids that aren't his. I feel stuck and I don't know what to think. I get so depressed thinking about it. I need advice please