I don't know what to do. I just know I love her.

-I was with a girl for 2 1/2 years.

-Last year I made a big move to anther country for a job opportunity. I went without including her in the decision and just sort of told her I was going. I broke her heart.

-In that year I've focused more on myself and my career. I have a stable job and feel more confident and happy about my career future than I have in a while. But the problem is Im still stuck on her. Ive made new friends here and go out on a frequent basis and meet new girls. Even had a girl I was dating off-and-on for 3 months, but it never got serious. The new girl reminded me a lot of the girls I dated when I was younger- hott, but somewhat controlling and manipulative. I can't find anyone who can replace that other girl.

-We saw each other this summer. It was intense and emotional. I can tell she still loves me and I am still crazy about her. The thing is I don't want to hurt her. I would never ask her to uproot her life and move to a foreign country for me, but I also wouldnt rush and propose to her so we can stay together (that feels forced). I am sick that I might be losing her for good this time.

About me: Im kind of a late bloomer in life. I dont ever really show my emotions or talk about them. I dont ever "put myself out there." Part of the reason we work so well is because she's so openhearted I feel safe around her. I moved around a lot as a kid (at least every 4 years) and have always learned to make friends and then never see them again. I dont know if that messed up my attachment skills. I have a decent relationship with both of my parents. My dad is stern but kind. I didn't have any major trauma as a kid.