Shewolfnm, got to this thread late and can only add my best wishes. I've had clinical depression since my teens and there have been times when I thought it really wasn't worth the effort to try to get better.
Some things you might consider are, is your depression post partum or can it be traced to an incident in your childhood? It can take so many forms and be caused by a number of things--sometimes it is impossible to know the cause, but it is wise to find out if you can.
I do take antidepressants, but all the other ideas add to my well being (when I remember to do them).

My heart goes out to you. If you ever want to PM me about anything, please feel free--I would be happy to talk with you and provide a small support system for you. You will be in my thoughts.