back with some info. lol
I'm back lol sorry been working alot kids ect ect.. anyway heres what happened:
we talked he hasnt talked with her for over a year( timing about right since we became exclusive).
thats probably why the subject line said " hope this is still your email address". we talked alot about past relationships ect... ( something we both decided to let the past be the past so this was pretty much the first time talking about that subject in depth) in a way it kinda felt good i found out things about him and vise versa. BUT now heres something that im pissed about and i told him( ive gotten to the point where i basically said F it and if you choose to walk ill open the door im not going to keep being bothered by something and not say anything just to keep peace. ( know what i mean?)
anyway he called her the next day ( after our talk) GRRRRRRRRRR to " let her know he has a GF and that he wasnt going to be able to continue talking ect ect well, you got it, im pssed i flew off the handle yelling at him " why couldnt you call her infront of me since there was such a need to let her know?didnt you think she would get the hint if you didnt have any kind of contact with her?"the thing is HE didnt tell me he called her i played him on it ( told him i KNEW he called her,) he wasnt mad he said hed probably do the same thing to me if he had that strong feelings something wasnt right weather he was right or wrong)and he fell for it and told me he did ( wrong i know BUT i just had that feeling he did, i know how he is, thinks and the kind of person he is he wouldnt intentionally hurt anyones feeling be nasty to anyone ect ect) so i knew he would call her. she told him ( what he says) she understood shes sorry didnt know he had a GF just wanted to see him again
and if she was in the same boat as me she probably would of done the same thing ( emailing the woman) BUT she probably woudnt have been so nice lol ( i didnt go off in the email i sent her just simply stated he had a GF)she wont email or call anymore. the next day he came over ( i was still working) he deleted ALL his ( 2 of them) email addresses and made 1 new one, when i got home he told me he did this and he wanted me to have access to it and gave me the password. in a way i am happy BUT i told him i didnt want access to it and IF i ever really felt the need to go into it i would be able to figure it out again! lol geesh i am with him 1.5 yrs never went into it until i felt something not right and i was right ! i do regret going into it BUT im glad i did and those were my exact words to him! he understood. now between you guys me and the wall ( he dosnt know i post on here) i am in a sense relieved but how do i start trusting him again its not so much the emails but the phone thing? what if they are talking on the phone? i clearly told him theres no room in our relationship for his old F buddies ( thats what he said she was)!
i dropped mine( no longer have contact) when we became exclusive with the understanding he did to! but its in the back of my head i wonder if they are still talking. sorry my posts are long but i dont really have anyone close i can talk to, and i really need to get this stuff out.