@xoslaughterxo,
Why on earth is it wrong to be friends with an ex? Don't you see many worthwhile qualities in her? Is she behaving inappropriately? Is she disrespectful to your current girlfriend? What is it that is wrong about her being your friend?
Granted, it may make things more difficult if your current girlfriend is insecure (and lots of people are insecure), but that doesn't make it wrong.
You probably shouldn't have lied, and at the same time, it's human to worry about these things - and to make sometimes hurtful choices because of our worries and fears...but you weren't trying to hurt her, so stop beating yourself up. Admit that your decisions, based in fear, ended up hurting her, apologise, and don't lie about those things again. But don't beat yourself up,
over and over - you don't deserve that, at all.