I know this question may come across as neurotic or even obsessive but despite what people may think of me Id really like some clarity and insight on the subject. My partner and I have been together for four years and we Love each other dearly. He's my best Friend and I've never loved anyone as deeply as I love him. I am thankful that he feels the same about me. Without getting too mushy or boring you guys a little background on us: Im the first Woman he's ever loved and the first person he's ever verbally vocalized this to ("I Love you")Since meeting me and being together he has come along way emotionally. I love him and he Loves me unconditionally... The one hiccup that is driving me CRAZY may just be because of my own insecurities/stupidity but I made the detrimental mistake of asking the question many Women fear hearing the answer to... "Who was your best?" He's a very honest person so although he didn't want to and was a bit uncomfortable because he knew what would happen afterwards (he has great foresight) he told me... There was a girl that he was seeing for a short stint of time after we broke up years ago as a way of getting over me/a rebound. He didnt have any feelings for her beyond their physical relationship and broke it off with her because she became too attached and wanted more than he did (I remember him telling me about her at that time and I could tell he wasn't really feeling her) But apparently she gave the best head he's ever had... When I ask how or why he has a hard time articulating what exactly sets her apart (FRUSTRATING) but from what I understand he loved the fact that she did it to him for the sole purpose of making him cum and that was her only goal and gave her pleasure. The "feeling" he can't explain but maybe someone here can? So my question finally; (sorry I've always had a hard time condensing my thoughts) Ive come a long way in the oral sex department and Im proud of how much better I am at it (I started getting into oral in my early 20s) and although it took a lot to really start Loving it I can say in all honesty I do love doing it to him. And I know Im someones Best... But I want to be his... Will I ever be his best? I feel so discouraged and frustrated and I feel like this isn't a "practice makes perfect" situation. He tells me He loves it and Im his best but I know thats not entirely true... I can't stop thinking about what she did that Im not doing or can't do? Is it in the genes? Am I just a lost cause? I want to be his best and I want it to be mind blowing, pun intended. It makes me insecure and I feel like its holding me back from really being his best... Men is your SO your best in all sexual capacities? Are some Women so good at it that others can never hold a candle to them? Is oral sex a talent your either born with or born without? I know Im great at it, but since asking him and knowing about her its always in the back of my mind and I can't just let go when Im doing it, Im always analyzing my moves and thinking about what and how Im doing it instead of just DOING it... Can I ever believe him when he says "No, your my best"? Does being emotionally detached to a Woman make oral sex better? Are emotions a variable at all when it comes to really good oral sex? Smfh any advice would be helpful! Thanks!
Where could he have been mentally? Could you elaborate?
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