I know it's not a sign of weakness, it's just a difficult thing for me to do. I've spent my whole life being mostly silent and bottling my emotions, not even my parents ever sat me down to talk about how I felt, about anything. And whenever I tried, they dismissed me, and cut me off, and made my decisions for me. I tremble whenever I think about opening up to people, even my friends, and I hide my feelings on instinct. That's why I vent online. It's easier with the anonymity and lack of speaking or body language.