Any advice to calm down?

I think I've noticed that you write well. Use it (maybe you already are going there.)
Adds, you can draw!

I'm a now a oldish woman who never took art in high school or my free (sigh, back then some good universities were free) years at university - but all that time I did like art, starting with what I saw in stores' windows.

Later, I studied painting at night school, a kind of blooming.
I hope you learn to appreciate yourself more and more.

I may end up disagreeing with you strongly on this or that, still hope you talk.

That sounds like a good idea. I'd like to draw something I could sell. Right now though it feels like a hobby. I'm working to perfect my style all the time, I'm hoping an opportunity will inspire me to make something and apply it for business. I don't approach things easy, it takes time to come out of my comfort spot.

I know exactly what you're writing about here.

For me, I wish therapy was writing not talking. I get overly nervous on many therapy days (not even overly thinking about going into the day's session) but weary and anxious that I'm frustrating and maybe even wasting my therapist's time because a lot of awkward silence is happening in many sessions because I still can't verbalize much of my feelings and thoughts and concerns and issues.

I often blame it on being overwhelmed by my tinnitus.

I often force myself to say inane things like listing what I did the prior week socially in order to say ANYTHING and to avoid the awkward silences of my own making.


That's why I personally taken to the internet like a school of fish in a safe coral reef. The internet is both my savior and my social and emotional crutch/drug of choice.

Sometimes you have to force yourself to spit out these feelings and hope that one day it will come as second nature.

I feel everything you're saying, man. I feel like you're someone I'd have a beer with. I have tinnitus too, but I guess I can say it's grown on me to the point where it's normal. That's one thing about me that I can say might possibly save me if I tried, the fact that I'm so easy to adjust. Maybe if I got the chance to break the ice and have a first therapy session, just maybe I'd feel more comfortable expressing myself.

Hold on there! You can try some CBD if you're 18 or older or try to read some, watch some cartoons, breathing exercies, otherwise just switch the thoughts, I know it sounds silly but helps too good to be true.

FYI: You're replying to a 7 year old thread where the OP hasn't been around to a2k since 2017. He's clearly not going to get your advice.