It doesn't seem right for people with no medical training to be suggesting you may have a mental disorder. As someone with some experience in that field I'd like to point out you didn't actually describe anything that seems schizophrenic. It sounded to me like you have religious ideas, and they are running with your imagination lately, giving you trouble. And why not, that's what christianity is good for! ..making people feel troubled and ashamed and guilty and judgmental and every horrible thing. (Sorry, but it is true.) I assure you it's just one of many creation myths. It was created by cavemen. And the "bible" has been found to be just wrong, all through it (even believers know that, which is why they pick and chose what to believe of it, and then change things by "interpreting"...and Bah! Don't you think if that book were actually "Gods sacred word" it'd be full of truth that cannot be denied or found fault in?
Well it's faulty. But again: cavemen wrote it.
I dislike christianity because of all the religions that are and have been, it's a particularly nasty one. It's quite detrimental with its recommendations of repression and oppression and guilt and fear and shame, and excluding and condemning (and even killing) people of different kinds. I cant see it as a tale of a "loving forgiving" supreme being who made everything, when I notice that it says 144,00o will go to heaven, and EIGHT BILLION will be burned in torment FOREVER.
Seriously, the only religion that tells more horrible ideas than Christianity is Islam.
Why not try Buddhism? In that religion, there is no bad or good. All simply is and needs to be. All is of God. So no one needs to judge or condemn or feel guilty or afraid of a monster in the sky burning them unendingly if they don't apologize for every stray thought.
Or you could try Hinduism, which is also one of the nice religions..in that its notion of recurring lifetimes means that no one is lesser or better than anyone else - we are all just younger or older..and all headed towards full development in the end. How egalitarian. How nice!
So please beware of medical advice from people with no training. And know that if you need a religion, there are CHOICES - including not at all, or one of the kinder religions like Hinduism and Bhuddism. And be aware that religious ideas can be particularly compelling to the mind, so I have found it best to avoid religion as it cannot be proved, and I don't wish to be going about acting as if a myth is real (That actually is crazy, by definition at least) (to think the unreal is real). But no worries, if you're stuck with the religion your childhood conditioned into you, well..many people have that condition to deal with too, so no one should condemn you as crazy for it. But just know, honestly, it isn't real . But a lot of folks seem to need a sense of being spiritual, so they cling to their adopted creation myth. And ok, but foe me, a generic sense of being spiritual is enough (so no god, no formal religion, just explore being intuitive and feeling part of a larger whole (people, and the universe I suppose). One doesn't HAVE to believe in a monster in the sky who will throw you into a lake of fire and never extinguish you not in a trillion years of "moaning and gnashing teeth in agony", if you don't apologize and repress and beg forgiveness often enough while you live your 80 years of judgmentality and self repression. *frown* ! One CAN be spiritual without having to imagine evil entities (including the omnipotent being himself, from the bible's description of "Him").