@lollypop35,
There's nothing wrong with having a crush on someone - but it shouldn't take over your life.
Make sure you see the situation e realistically.
Does he know that you are interested in him? Do not use your friends to carry messages back and forth. Speak to him directly and ask him to study with you or go for a pop or something.
If he is not interested in returning your attention, then this will stay a fantasy. And fantasies are always much better than reality. In the meantime, someone else may be passing you by.