I have company but I feel soo lonely... why?

Hi,

if somebody bothers to read this article, thank you. And I also would like to mention I have a few beers in me, so more than reasons here are speaking my actual emotions . I had bad mood entire day and so I took a few beer to increase it. Opposite happened (surprisingly!) and I feel more melancholic than before.

The thing is... when it comes to intimate feeling, I have clearly a lot of to catch up with... and so I am asking for advice or inspiration, maybe you can push me a bit further?

I have been single for a long time but recently I found a place where I met a few very interesting girls I am in regular contact with. Clearly, these girls like me and I must say, they do have quite a lot of interesting traits and I appreciate them. I like them too! But... they just don't appeal to my heart. It feels like "this is nice, but this is NOT you truly miss".

The thing is... suddenly... with their company I feel more lonely than before! Why? What is wrong? I don't understand. Is it just me or is it normal?

In past I used to have sex with several women I didn't really like but they were available and I needed it. So we had fun. And I can remember I used to have the same feelings like now. back then, I split up with them because it felt wrong. I am beginning to suspect that by talking to girls I like but not love I opened Pandora's box again and my true needs are getting to surface.

does it make sense to you? What do you say?

I am 28 btw.