@PUNKEY,
Thanks for your responses -
I'm in no hurry for my spouse to trust me - I know she can't...
I'm not trying to convince her of anything either - she is questioning me - I answer her questions - but she is unable to believe the story because it doesn't quite make sense... it's not a typical affair type story - even I know how ridiculous the story sounds - however, I am providing her the truth of the story - she is unable to believe what took place.
I'm not desperate for anything to do with me at all.... I am desperate for her to start trying to heal - yes - so when I answer her questions - I'm trying to help her by giving her what she needs - but the truth is inconceivable to her... that's all I'm trying to say...